I sometimes find that you and I collide .:*
Sometimes I just don't know what I want. I've never had a boyfriend and it's always been fine with me. I've never needed one. I'm okay just doing what I want and hanging out with friends. But then sometimes I really want a boyfriend. I feel like I'm missing out. Or not really that, I just want to be someone's girl. To be adored.
But I don't really like it when guys hit on me. Sometimes it's flattering, but I'd rather be friends with someone first. Not just some girl to hook-up with. I'm not like that. Tonight these guys in the car next to me were looking at me so I looked over and smiled and then he gestured at me to roll down my window. So of course, I rolled down the window. Then he asked me what I doing and if I was single. I was in the turning lane and my light turned green so I went and he was in the lane to go straight. Well somehow he managed to get in there and cut across 3 lanes to catch up to me. Then his other friend in Mustang came in front of me and started driving slow so that I would have slow down and so that this guy [Sean] and his friend were right next to me. He told me I was very attractive and asked me how old I was. Then asked me if I found what he just did to get to me impressive. Yes, sure. He followed me to the YMCA, cos I told him that's where I was going and I ended up just giving him my cell phone and he said he'd call me later, as I was going to a basketball game. Right.
But this whole thing is kinda weird! He's not really my type..or so I think. He's got biig muscles. I'm not really into that. I shouldn't judge him. He was kinda cute, but I just didn't feel flattered by his actions. I felt like he was the party.hard type that was just looking for a hook-up. But maybe not. So confusing, I am. But he never called anyways.
It's just not how I picture things. I don't even know why I gave him my number. That's not true..I do know. It's because I can't say 'no.' I can't turn people down. I didn't even know what to say to him. He's 23..not that old, but I'd prefer someone a bit closer to my age.
I guess I just set my standards high, and really there's nothing wrong with that.
But I don't really like it when guys hit on me. Sometimes it's flattering, but I'd rather be friends with someone first. Not just some girl to hook-up with. I'm not like that. Tonight these guys in the car next to me were looking at me so I looked over and smiled and then he gestured at me to roll down my window. So of course, I rolled down the window. Then he asked me what I doing and if I was single. I was in the turning lane and my light turned green so I went and he was in the lane to go straight. Well somehow he managed to get in there and cut across 3 lanes to catch up to me. Then his other friend in Mustang came in front of me and started driving slow so that I would have slow down and so that this guy [Sean] and his friend were right next to me. He told me I was very attractive and asked me how old I was. Then asked me if I found what he just did to get to me impressive. Yes, sure. He followed me to the YMCA, cos I told him that's where I was going and I ended up just giving him my cell phone and he said he'd call me later, as I was going to a basketball game. Right.
But this whole thing is kinda weird! He's not really my type..or so I think. He's got biig muscles. I'm not really into that. I shouldn't judge him. He was kinda cute, but I just didn't feel flattered by his actions. I felt like he was the party.hard type that was just looking for a hook-up. But maybe not. So confusing, I am. But he never called anyways.
It's just not how I picture things. I don't even know why I gave him my number. That's not true..I do know. It's because I can't say 'no.' I can't turn people down. I didn't even know what to say to him. He's 23..not that old, but I'd prefer someone a bit closer to my age.
I guess I just set my standards high, and really there's nothing wrong with that.