labor pains
pheww...
who knew giving birth to your ideas could be so hard. truth be told, i do know. i have a notebook filled with my ideas which either have been half baked or definitely failed to launch. sometime i wonder why i even bother having online journals if i don't bother to put anything into it. wasting web space...
i never though i'd have another online journal to my list, as i already have a hard time keeping up with two. well, my account here was purely due to the communities i got sucked into (see interest / membership). but over time i re-evaluated and i saw that this maybe my motivation or some nagging "obligation" to get my head occupied and finally have a channel to vent all the blur and brilliant ideas in my head.
its probably time to put my thinking cap on, or maybe make more room for whatever my mind could conjure by emptying out everything else. knowing well enough that no one thoroughly knows me here to judge whatever emotional or intellectual(or maybe not) out pour i am capable of.
i re-read this entry before i started this sentence, its quite disappointing because as far as i know this is not how it played out in my head. the gist is there but the construction is not to par. that again is why i don't attempt to write my thoughts, have it materialize. cause once it is in writing i look at its as imperfect and flawed. when that thought came entered my mind it got me thinking, i need to stop being so critical and over-analyze myself. after all the entire point of having a journal is getting your point across regardless of someone taking interest or mildly understanding the message your sending. its more of keeping yourself in check.
baby steps is all i need. leaps will come later. perhaps in a month from now, when i try to read this again maybe i'll be amused and scold myself of how immature i was. this may lead to something great, hone my skills or maybe just something to keep me sane (some sort of therapy).
hopefully this will not be my last entry and the next one will not be in a not so distant future.
see you around...
who knew giving birth to your ideas could be so hard. truth be told, i do know. i have a notebook filled with my ideas which either have been half baked or definitely failed to launch. sometime i wonder why i even bother having online journals if i don't bother to put anything into it. wasting web space...
i never though i'd have another online journal to my list, as i already have a hard time keeping up with two. well, my account here was purely due to the communities i got sucked into (see interest / membership). but over time i re-evaluated and i saw that this maybe my motivation or some nagging "obligation" to get my head occupied and finally have a channel to vent all the blur and brilliant ideas in my head.
its probably time to put my thinking cap on, or maybe make more room for whatever my mind could conjure by emptying out everything else. knowing well enough that no one thoroughly knows me here to judge whatever emotional or intellectual(or maybe not) out pour i am capable of.
i re-read this entry before i started this sentence, its quite disappointing because as far as i know this is not how it played out in my head. the gist is there but the construction is not to par. that again is why i don't attempt to write my thoughts, have it materialize. cause once it is in writing i look at its as imperfect and flawed. when that thought came entered my mind it got me thinking, i need to stop being so critical and over-analyze myself. after all the entire point of having a journal is getting your point across regardless of someone taking interest or mildly understanding the message your sending. its more of keeping yourself in check.
baby steps is all i need. leaps will come later. perhaps in a month from now, when i try to read this again maybe i'll be amused and scold myself of how immature i was. this may lead to something great, hone my skills or maybe just something to keep me sane (some sort of therapy).
hopefully this will not be my last entry and the next one will not be in a not so distant future.
see you around...