yeah. what?

[charleskaye]

i love my people.
all appologies for the negatives.
some time shit just seems like it wont go better.

worked from midnight till eight.
noon till sevenish.
band practice till tenish.
work agin from midnight till seven thirtyish.
who loves life?

reasons to be acting crazy.
working more to pay for things i need.
house. insurance. phone etc.
things i want.
food. trips. memorials. etc.
working on the house with spare time so i can get a good room mate.
two bands to practice with.
hopefully after this show thursday, things will calm for a moment.
when my grandmother came to town she didnt look the same.
in panama city she was alright.
trying to organize.
still positive.
it seems like shes kinda given up.
just doesnt seem to smile any more.
kinda stares off.
i wish i didnt have to work so much.
but i have to so i can afford to go see her.
hopefully she will move up here and be ok.
she's an awsome lady.
i feel like im not getting enough human contact.
every hug and pat on the back gets ingrained in my thoughts.
i need to have contact.

i am ready for the future to come.