must...quit...smoking
Well now that I've caught your attention..I'm just updating as usual. Anyways..in the past few days it's been awkward for me with the whole fathers day holiday. Anyone that knows me that I hate those kind of holidays cause of my parents and I have to think about them. Also my grandma made it worse by saying I have to get my dad a card and mail it to him...I mean fuck that cause he's never done shit for me so I won't do shit for him..I mean I could be the bigger person here but no it's my dad's turn to be the bigger person. If he wants a relationship with me then he has to make the effort..I've already made enough effort to reconnect with him. Also yesterday one of my ex tried to pin me down and do who knows what to me but I managed to escape from her so I don't feel bad cause I didn't do anything I might regret. Also I'm hella tired cause I haven't slept in the last 3 days. So I'm gonna see if I can go a whole week without sleep..I have no idea why I want to do that but I just do cause I'm weird. Also yes I think I'm addicted to smoking cause I keep trying to quit but whenever the opportunity comes up to smoke I always take it and I hate myself for that cause I really do want to quit..so if any of you have any advice on how I can quit then I'd like to here from you guys.
-Charles
-Charles