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I should be working....but I can't get myself away from this....
I took our picture down last night....from my profile and rearview mirror....and up until then I was kinda okay with the whole thing....but after that I broke a little....and cried a lot....
I looked at your page a few minutes ago....and saw that I'm no longer on it....and that hurt me more than you know....more than you will EVER know....
And it's not just "anyone" that took my place....it was her....
Do you know how much this is killing me? Do you fucking care? After all the things I told you....after all the conversations we had about "us" and our lives, and our families, and our past relationships.....After all the hours we spent getting to know each other....you can just go back to her like you were never apart....like she never cheated on you, or hurt you, or lied to you....like you had never even met ME....
And if you were just some guy that I would never see again, it wouldn't even be that big of a deal....but I will see you in three weeks....and I just needed you to know that it will kill me seeing you with her....
So if I am not myself....if I do not act sweet and funny and friendly with you....if I do not smile or laugh or joke.....just know it is because my heart is breaking....that I'm falling apart as we speak....and wishing that I was her....
I took our picture down last night....from my profile and rearview mirror....and up until then I was kinda okay with the whole thing....but after that I broke a little....and cried a lot....
I looked at your page a few minutes ago....and saw that I'm no longer on it....and that hurt me more than you know....more than you will EVER know....
And it's not just "anyone" that took my place....it was her....
Do you know how much this is killing me? Do you fucking care? After all the things I told you....after all the conversations we had about "us" and our lives, and our families, and our past relationships.....After all the hours we spent getting to know each other....you can just go back to her like you were never apart....like she never cheated on you, or hurt you, or lied to you....like you had never even met ME....
And if you were just some guy that I would never see again, it wouldn't even be that big of a deal....but I will see you in three weeks....and I just needed you to know that it will kill me seeing you with her....
So if I am not myself....if I do not act sweet and funny and friendly with you....if I do not smile or laugh or joke.....just know it is because my heart is breaking....that I'm falling apart as we speak....and wishing that I was her....