Odd dreams and NyQuil
Taking NyQuil before bed gives me even odder dreams than I usually have.
Of what I remember-
-One-
I was online, and looking at the guild that was supposed to be decorated for the next upcoming holidays (St. Patty's Day, Easter, whathaveya) - and instead it was a garish blood red swirled.. and had symbols of life and death and hope and despair from various relgions on it. There was a cross, a star of David, a menorah, an ankh, a Wheel of Fortune from a tarot deck, and some others I didnt' recognize. There was also a little trail of stars that drifed down the page. I was angry at whoever decorated it that way, because I didn't want to think about life, and I didn't want to think about death, and I sure as hell didn't want to think about religion.
-Two-
I was walking in beige, crusty sand. I was barefoot, and Aus was walking with me. There was a huge blue sky, with just a bit of clouds- then I looked off to one side, and there was a big wall of the beige sand.. and I could smell water behind it.. like the sand was holding back the water. A lot of water. The sand starts to crack .. little jagged fissures appear, and I think that it's strange that the sand breaks, instead of just absorbing the water. Someone unseen says that we should leave, because the water is going to break through, but I just take a deep breath, and so does Aus. The water bursts through, and there's a deafening roar.. and it washes over us, and washes us far from where we started, but we burst through the surface, unharmed, and start to swim.
-Three-
I'm not sure if this is a part of two, or just contains similar symbols... I'm walking with Aus, Kara, and Ry through the beige sand. I'm leading the way.. I know where I'm going, and I start weaving my way through a few very old graves. The others stop and look at them, but I just look straight ahead.. and I start feeling like there's more graves here than we can see, and start tracing the outline of other graves on the ground, and I can actually feel the dead in the earth under my (still bare) feet, helping me find them. Here and there, I find a headstone- completely blank, never been carved. I'm ourtaged.. I'm sad for all these people (maybe twenty or so) who have no markers for their grave. Then someone taps my shoulder (Aus, maybe?) and I turn to look where a hand points.. there's a mountain of that beige dirt, with bones and skulls sticking out of it at irregular intervals. I start to hear the voices of the dead, each one of them keening "help me... help me..." . I hold my hands to my head.. I can't help you all.. I scream.. you're too many, too many to help... and I run... and in this dream I can run (which is unusually for me, because usually, my dreams are realistic in that I can't/won't run - it's undignified, and rather irritating to have to run). Everyone follows me...
-Four-
Definately a part of three.. we make camp, Aus, Kara, and Ry and me. We're hungry, and have eggs and sausage from somewhere. I don't know what we're going to cook it on, but Kara points out these black rocks that the sun is heating, and we start cooking the food on the rocks. Claire comes up from somewhere, and she wants to share our eggs, and Ry says no- but Aus and I say that we have plenty of eggs, so it's okay to share. We don't share the sausage, though. After we're done eating, we want to leave, and so we get up and start walking. There's a fence though.. with barbed wire and wood.. taller than I am.. and we can't get over it. I can see the graves beyond the fence.. but we can't get back the way we came. So we go on, and there's a tribal cheiftan.. and he tells me we desecrated his burrial grounds by cooking on them. I got very angry, and told him that his way of burring people was shit - how could so many graves be unmarked? He told me calmly that they only recorded the names of important people who died, and that the others were unimportant enough to be burried without names. I said - what about those who were in the big pile? And he said - they were those who had made no impact on the world at all, who were not missed, and who would return to the earth like nothing, as they had been in life. I was disgusted, and demanded he open the fence so that we could go home. He said that he could not- we had crossed over, and must remain... unless I passed his tests. I said screw your tests, I want to go home, and you're damn well going to let us go home. He was amused, and chuckled, saying that I had great courage- for a girl. I retorted that I had great courage for anyone, and that if he didn't show us the way home, I was going to kick him in the nuts and just walk past him and find my own way. With that, he laughed and stood up, and pointed the way out. It had been there all along, and nothing was blocking it.. we just hadn't seen it before. As we all passed (I was the last one out), the chieftan tapped me on the shoulder, and whispered "When you die.. everyone will remember your name.. everyone will know who you were, and what you will become".
What do they mean? I don't know...
Of what I remember-
-One-
I was online, and looking at the guild that was supposed to be decorated for the next upcoming holidays (St. Patty's Day, Easter, whathaveya) - and instead it was a garish blood red swirled.. and had symbols of life and death and hope and despair from various relgions on it. There was a cross, a star of David, a menorah, an ankh, a Wheel of Fortune from a tarot deck, and some others I didnt' recognize. There was also a little trail of stars that drifed down the page. I was angry at whoever decorated it that way, because I didn't want to think about life, and I didn't want to think about death, and I sure as hell didn't want to think about religion.
-Two-
I was walking in beige, crusty sand. I was barefoot, and Aus was walking with me. There was a huge blue sky, with just a bit of clouds- then I looked off to one side, and there was a big wall of the beige sand.. and I could smell water behind it.. like the sand was holding back the water. A lot of water. The sand starts to crack .. little jagged fissures appear, and I think that it's strange that the sand breaks, instead of just absorbing the water. Someone unseen says that we should leave, because the water is going to break through, but I just take a deep breath, and so does Aus. The water bursts through, and there's a deafening roar.. and it washes over us, and washes us far from where we started, but we burst through the surface, unharmed, and start to swim.
-Three-
I'm not sure if this is a part of two, or just contains similar symbols... I'm walking with Aus, Kara, and Ry through the beige sand. I'm leading the way.. I know where I'm going, and I start weaving my way through a few very old graves. The others stop and look at them, but I just look straight ahead.. and I start feeling like there's more graves here than we can see, and start tracing the outline of other graves on the ground, and I can actually feel the dead in the earth under my (still bare) feet, helping me find them. Here and there, I find a headstone- completely blank, never been carved. I'm ourtaged.. I'm sad for all these people (maybe twenty or so) who have no markers for their grave. Then someone taps my shoulder (Aus, maybe?) and I turn to look where a hand points.. there's a mountain of that beige dirt, with bones and skulls sticking out of it at irregular intervals. I start to hear the voices of the dead, each one of them keening "help me... help me..." . I hold my hands to my head.. I can't help you all.. I scream.. you're too many, too many to help... and I run... and in this dream I can run (which is unusually for me, because usually, my dreams are realistic in that I can't/won't run - it's undignified, and rather irritating to have to run). Everyone follows me...
-Four-
Definately a part of three.. we make camp, Aus, Kara, and Ry and me. We're hungry, and have eggs and sausage from somewhere. I don't know what we're going to cook it on, but Kara points out these black rocks that the sun is heating, and we start cooking the food on the rocks. Claire comes up from somewhere, and she wants to share our eggs, and Ry says no- but Aus and I say that we have plenty of eggs, so it's okay to share. We don't share the sausage, though. After we're done eating, we want to leave, and so we get up and start walking. There's a fence though.. with barbed wire and wood.. taller than I am.. and we can't get over it. I can see the graves beyond the fence.. but we can't get back the way we came. So we go on, and there's a tribal cheiftan.. and he tells me we desecrated his burrial grounds by cooking on them. I got very angry, and told him that his way of burring people was shit - how could so many graves be unmarked? He told me calmly that they only recorded the names of important people who died, and that the others were unimportant enough to be burried without names. I said - what about those who were in the big pile? And he said - they were those who had made no impact on the world at all, who were not missed, and who would return to the earth like nothing, as they had been in life. I was disgusted, and demanded he open the fence so that we could go home. He said that he could not- we had crossed over, and must remain... unless I passed his tests. I said screw your tests, I want to go home, and you're damn well going to let us go home. He was amused, and chuckled, saying that I had great courage- for a girl. I retorted that I had great courage for anyone, and that if he didn't show us the way home, I was going to kick him in the nuts and just walk past him and find my own way. With that, he laughed and stood up, and pointed the way out. It had been there all along, and nothing was blocking it.. we just hadn't seen it before. As we all passed (I was the last one out), the chieftan tapped me on the shoulder, and whispered "When you die.. everyone will remember your name.. everyone will know who you were, and what you will become".
What do they mean? I don't know...