Argh, Deviant Arts!
I would do myself a favour if I didn't log in DA too often. Why? Because in DA I keenly watch a great amount of artists and They're All Better Than Me!
Seriously, I have a very bad habit of comparing my stuff to the artwork done by professional people. Real artists, you know. I'm always amazed by the amount of detail in quality illustrations that are far more extravagant and beautiful than anything I could come up with. I know it's stupid to feel this way, because... Well, because it's rather childish. If everyone could paint like Rembrandt, no one would spend their time baking bread and we'd all be dead before noon because, in a fit of agonizing hunger, we would've tried to eat dried-up paint instead of real bakery goods.
The sad thing is that I've always wanted to draw stuff for a living. Every now and then I get this vague feeling that I just might be good enough - or that I might eventually learn to be good enough. I wish I could just stop the flow of time and spend 30 years in some ethereal void learning how to do everything I know better. After that life could just go on and I would finally make some actual money by selling my own prints.