Time grinding on and on.
Still working on boxing up the last of my mom's stuff with Dad. I have to finish the last of the the thank you cards this weekend for all the sympathy cards we have received. Which is really harder than it sounds, as they are either general statements, or really touching vignettes of how other people were touched by her life. So they can take a lot of energy and will to get through without getting lost in the memories or sadness. Found out my UI payments are not going to be extended after Jan. 1st unless the law changes, and still no job, and on top of everything else, I found out that my old license from OH is suspended, but they can't tell me why, as that office is closed until after the weekend.
I am so tired and trying so hard not to get depressed, but I really feel I am losing this battle and not even sure what good I am doing here, other than helping Dad through everything. So I can't show anything and have to stay positive. He is having a hard enough time already, and I am most likely responding to the weather as it's been colder and darker lately, so no need to bring up stuff you can't change anyway. And besides, I need to try and figure out something to get dad for his birthday on the 8th.
So no time for downtime. On your feet soldier. On Your Feet!
I am so tired and trying so hard not to get depressed, but I really feel I am losing this battle and not even sure what good I am doing here, other than helping Dad through everything. So I can't show anything and have to stay positive. He is having a hard enough time already, and I am most likely responding to the weather as it's been colder and darker lately, so no need to bring up stuff you can't change anyway. And besides, I need to try and figure out something to get dad for his birthday on the 8th.
So no time for downtime. On your feet soldier. On Your Feet!