7月25日2006年 日本... さよなら！
im sooo taking a break at the moment. im totally dead from today.
for my last day in Japan i packed in the morning, ate ramen lunch with Murata host family and hung out in Ikebukero with Al. Of course there was a few problems in between but at this point i really just dont care anymore. :D i havent slept for who knows how long and i hardly doubt i will get much tonite.. (eer, today now?)
[just think. THIS thing is gonna be living on the same continent as you all again :0 fear the charlie-ness!]
So. yep. im coming home. i can hardly believe it. ive been saying goodbyes to everyone and packing non stop and the time of leaving for airport comes within hours. and yet, i still cant grasp that its all over. i try and think as i do each thing for the last time (favy tokyo places, anime/manga shopping, riding trains, busy commuter hours on trains of doom, getting lost everywhere, riding my bike, going to school, seeing my friends, seeing my host families, etc.) and yet, here i am now just cramming in the last of my current Japan life into boxes and bags and i still dont believe im going home.
I know everyone back home keeps sending me messages of, "yea! your finally coming home!" and "i know its sad that you leave japan but you get to come back now with us!" etc etc etc..
Im like.. excited to be coming back. hell, i miss my doggy, mustard sandwiches and my OWN computer (oh, and family and friends also i suppose, lol). but the thing is.. noone really understands how hard this is. living in japan this past year has been my NEW life and it took a lot out of me to accomplish it. and now just as its getting to be the best ever- i gotta stop at the deadline and leave.
I sent a message on my cellphone to all my friends saying goodbye and i must have gotten back tons of messages back from them all (in japanese) saying that they love and will miss me. i was reading them all on my train ride home tonite and it really made me feel sad. must i really leave them all just now? but as my mom ALWAYS says, "whatever happens it was ment to be." so hopefully, someday i will see them all again with a renewed passion for Japan life and all will be good. i just hope so.
So, enough about thoughts of pre-go-homey-ramblings.. this is most likely my last post in this journal before i leave for Amerika so THANKYOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS SUPPORTED ME THROUGHOUT THIS PAST YEAR! i truley and absolutly appreciate all the comments of encouragment and so on. it helped. it really really helped. and ya know what, I DID Japan. and im finally proud to say i accomplished something great in my life.
farewell Japan. it was fun and sad that it came to an end so quickly. ill definently come back for sure. まったね！ :D!!!!
for my last day in Japan i packed in the morning, ate ramen lunch with Murata host family and hung out in Ikebukero with Al. Of course there was a few problems in between but at this point i really just dont care anymore. :D i havent slept for who knows how long and i hardly doubt i will get much tonite.. (eer, today now?)
[just think. THIS thing is gonna be living on the same continent as you all again :0 fear the charlie-ness!]
So. yep. im coming home. i can hardly believe it. ive been saying goodbyes to everyone and packing non stop and the time of leaving for airport comes within hours. and yet, i still cant grasp that its all over. i try and think as i do each thing for the last time (favy tokyo places, anime/manga shopping, riding trains, busy commuter hours on trains of doom, getting lost everywhere, riding my bike, going to school, seeing my friends, seeing my host families, etc.) and yet, here i am now just cramming in the last of my current Japan life into boxes and bags and i still dont believe im going home.
I know everyone back home keeps sending me messages of, "yea! your finally coming home!" and "i know its sad that you leave japan but you get to come back now with us!" etc etc etc..
Im like.. excited to be coming back. hell, i miss my doggy, mustard sandwiches and my OWN computer (oh, and family and friends also i suppose, lol). but the thing is.. noone really understands how hard this is. living in japan this past year has been my NEW life and it took a lot out of me to accomplish it. and now just as its getting to be the best ever- i gotta stop at the deadline and leave.
I sent a message on my cellphone to all my friends saying goodbye and i must have gotten back tons of messages back from them all (in japanese) saying that they love and will miss me. i was reading them all on my train ride home tonite and it really made me feel sad. must i really leave them all just now? but as my mom ALWAYS says, "whatever happens it was ment to be." so hopefully, someday i will see them all again with a renewed passion for Japan life and all will be good. i just hope so.
So, enough about thoughts of pre-go-homey-ramblings.. this is most likely my last post in this journal before i leave for Amerika so THANKYOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS SUPPORTED ME THROUGHOUT THIS PAST YEAR! i truley and absolutly appreciate all the comments of encouragment and so on. it helped. it really really helped. and ya know what, I DID Japan. and im finally proud to say i accomplished something great in my life.
farewell Japan. it was fun and sad that it came to an end so quickly. ill definently come back for sure. まったね！ :D!!!!