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we're going camping tonight, with mike, lisa, and their friends. So basically, though we may have met some of these people, mike and lisa are the only ones we'll know.
i'm nervous. i don't handle new people well. jason keeps telling me that the whole point of camping this weekend is to relax. i've promised to try. is that pathetic? i have to try to relax. i have to remember that i'm not the mother and i don't have to take care of these people. yet i feel like i should. i feel like i need to stay sober, especially while we're on the pontoon boat, to make sure no one gets hurt or sick.
why do i feel responsible for people i don't even know?
i hope i can relax this weekend, at least a little. it will be nice to spend monday and tuesday just hanging out with jason. i took monday off. nice 4 day weekend.
i hope i can relax.
it doesn't help matters that i'm constantly on the verge of a migraine lately. yesterday i was having very sharp pains in the middle of my right brow bone. today i already had an aura and a mild vertigo. i hope i make it through the weekend. I have to remember to drink water in between each alcoholic beverage.
mom and dad will come see us in a couple weeks. josh and misty will be through some time in august.
i don't have much else to talk about.
i'm nervous. i don't handle new people well. jason keeps telling me that the whole point of camping this weekend is to relax. i've promised to try. is that pathetic? i have to try to relax. i have to remember that i'm not the mother and i don't have to take care of these people. yet i feel like i should. i feel like i need to stay sober, especially while we're on the pontoon boat, to make sure no one gets hurt or sick.
why do i feel responsible for people i don't even know?
i hope i can relax this weekend, at least a little. it will be nice to spend monday and tuesday just hanging out with jason. i took monday off. nice 4 day weekend.
i hope i can relax.
it doesn't help matters that i'm constantly on the verge of a migraine lately. yesterday i was having very sharp pains in the middle of my right brow bone. today i already had an aura and a mild vertigo. i hope i make it through the weekend. I have to remember to drink water in between each alcoholic beverage.
mom and dad will come see us in a couple weeks. josh and misty will be through some time in august.
i don't have much else to talk about.