A catharsis perhaps...

[chappi]

As I sit here in front of the computer screen, hundreds of thoughts run through my head. I can't even keep up with the changing scenarios. Kristin comes to visit in about 4 or 5 days...I really miss her. She makes me feel happy when I'm with her. She is so very special to me. Also, my parents will be arriving, as well. This is the first time they've been up to see me here since they helped me move all my stuff into the first apartment two and a half years ago. So, it'll be nice to show everyone around what has been my place of residence for the past two and a half years. But, before they can come, it's finals time. I need to buckle down for just three days, then everything will be wonderful. The woman I love will be in my arms, and just that somehow always makes life perfect. She, along with my parents and friends, will see me walk down that aisle to get my degree. It means the world to me. It's been a really hard, long journey. But despite the early entry, transferring, failing out and constant heartache from missing the one person in my life that makes me complete...I'm doin it! I never thought this day would come. I never thought I would get to hold Kristin in my arms as a college graduate. It'll be amazing! No more months of waiting to see each other, no more goodbyes, no more heartache...just love, every ounce that I have to give will radiate between us and all will be perfect.
I will miss my friends though. I have come to realize this in the past weeks. Hopefully, it is not goodbye, but maybe see ya later. I hope we can get together later sometime and reminisce about the good times. But time will tell. Right now, Connecticut is all I think about. Christmas time is approaching. Snow will be falling. Relaxing with the family. And cuddling with Kristin by the fireplace. Tears trickle down my face...It's then I can be happy again.