back in PA....
So...I went home for the weekend. It was a very nice time. I got to spend the vast majority of my time with the most beautiful, unique, intelligent and special girl in the world, Kristin. She makes everything ok, she is the one thing in my life that means the most to me (family a very close second). Every smile brightens my day, every kiss warms my heart and every word out of her mouth enraptures me. We had a wonderful time this weekend, hangin out, watchin tv, cuddlin and stuff. Her parents invited my parents over for dinner and we all had a very nice time. I hope so, at least. Everyone seemed to enjoy everyone else's company?! But, alas, the nicer the weekend, the harder it is to say goodbye. I don't know what it is, I used to be almost stolid when I would leave to go back, but recently I've just been a mess. There feels like there is so much riding on me. I so want to do well and make everyone proud, but it is so hard. EE 310 is just so scary. I took it last semester and got a D, the problem with this, however, is I need a C to graduate and I just hope I have it in me to achieve it. I understand the material, but when it comes time for tests, I choke...heart in my throat, gut-wrenching, eyes full of tears, mind gone blank CHOKE. I have an exam in one week, so I really need to get it going right. I'm so very sad...I miss home so much. I have a beautiful girlfriend and a great family...it's so hard to come back to all this stress. I really just want it all to work out. Well...I guess, work is what needs to be done. Work my ass off for the next 3 weeks and then back to CT for hopefully another weekend in paradise. I LOVE YOU, Kristin! Later All!