I don't know where to begin....
So many subjects running through my mind. Pookie, as always heads them up, as a tear runs down my cheek. I mean, could it be the problems she's having with the boys? Would it be the phone calls crying? Would it be that I miss her so much (which I do)? Actually...no...this is a different tear, it's a sentimental tear. I tear for my life that is different now, simply from two phrases from two people that I love and I wasn't exactly expecting to hear. I don't even know which to talk about first, they both mean so much to me, just thinking about them makes my eyes well up in tears of exuberance. First off, I suppose, while leaving Kristin to come to school, she uttered the 5 simple words; "I'm so proud of you", this melted my heart and made me unable to contain my emotion any longer. You know, I try so hard to make everything ok. I want her to be happy and I want to do good in school and sometimes school is so hard. I mean...I've always been proud of her and how well she's doing, almost jealous of her success. I can't even explain how much those words meant to me. And as if that wasn't enough, the day after, as I finished packing my car I came in to say goodbye to my parents while trying to fight off tears for the first time in almost 2 years. They were giving me the normal rundown, "Taking it easy, keep the speed down, call us when you get back...", when I burst into tears, I don't even know why? As I was leaving my mother's arms and entering into my father's for the goodbye hug, I told them I loved them and then those words came right back out of my father's mouth..."We love you too". This absolutely sent me into shock, my father is the quintessential male, he does not show emotion like this. Those words have not come out of his mouth, in the 21 years in which I can recall memories. Nine words total, two people...and a whole bunch of tears. As I said before...how this affects me...I am speechless. There are other things to talk about, but I just can't do it. This has been a very tiring entry. I think it is time to go to bed. Goodnight ALL!