Here I am...
Here I sit and contemplate how I feel about my life, after college. Well, I'm caught, caught in a whirlwind that encompasses my heart and soul. I know not of what way is up and what way is down. Life is an adventure. An adventure I want to share with someone. You. Oh gentle phoenix, put me on your wings and fly me to safety. I care not that you must explore the world, but please come back to me. Let me know that you care. I know not of the shadows that seek to overcome my soul. Shelter me. I love you. Hold my hand whilst together we journey through barren wastelands. Protect me.
Do you ever wonder if you are hanging on to something in vain? If maybe the best thing to do is to let go. I wonder. But, honestly, all the good times mean too much to let go. My best friend. It's like my girlfriend without intimacy. I need her. She seems to understand me. Or am I kidding myself? I think all these terrible thoughts, my mind drives itself crazy. But just hearing her voice relaxes all the strain in my heart. She's happy. That's what matters. She made me happy for so long, and, for the most part, still makes me happy, so she deserves every second of it. Some say that it is impossible for two people who were so into each other and so in love to be friends after parting ways. I used to think that was true. But I don't think so anymore. I treat her the same as I used to. There's just no intimacy anymore. I still love her and cherish her just as much as I did before. Nothing has changed, except the stupid label. She has my heart. And I know she will take good care of it for me. :)
Do you ever wonder if you are hanging on to something in vain? If maybe the best thing to do is to let go. I wonder. But, honestly, all the good times mean too much to let go. My best friend. It's like my girlfriend without intimacy. I need her. She seems to understand me. Or am I kidding myself? I think all these terrible thoughts, my mind drives itself crazy. But just hearing her voice relaxes all the strain in my heart. She's happy. That's what matters. She made me happy for so long, and, for the most part, still makes me happy, so she deserves every second of it. Some say that it is impossible for two people who were so into each other and so in love to be friends after parting ways. I used to think that was true. But I don't think so anymore. I treat her the same as I used to. There's just no intimacy anymore. I still love her and cherish her just as much as I did before. Nothing has changed, except the stupid label. She has my heart. And I know she will take good care of it for me. :)