i'm out... so out...

[chaovizua]

what is up everyone who might read this, but probably wont... anyway... so lately the thought of saying goodbye to new jersey has crossed my mind... and the more that time comes, the more i see no future here... the more i'm looking to getting out of here... so basically if i don't have anyone stopping me from leaving... then expect me out... i've already kinda set myself a goal of moving out of my mom's house by the end of the year... that's definite... but will i leave nj? that really has to do with whether i have a job by then yet, if i have some kind of career going on by then, then i'll probably move closer to that job, but that'll probably still by in NJ, and if that's the case, i'm looking for a roommate... if i don't find a job, i'll probably see who wants to move out of state, be in PA, or to someplace across the country or whatnot... at the same time, if i find myself a girl soon enough, then maybe she'll want to move out of the area with me, or just to PA... whatever, but if it comes to the near end of the year, i don't expect me to sit around and wait longer to find some girl who i don't have enough time invested to hold me back from moving away... we'll see what's going on, only time will tell, we only have 7 months til we find out... and 3 months until i'm driving again... the real problem is... i don't have any real reason other than my mom to not move far away... i mean i love my friends and all, but i'm not ready to get old and sit around yet, and no one seems to want to do anything anymore, i'm bored with life, and i need something to bring back the life in me... we'll see how that works...

i just don't know what's going on with my life... it's getting dragged out and i just need to get something going on... and right now i don't see any positivity here... i mean there's a handful of people i would love to bring with my whereever i go... but tell me, should i be happier? i need to find the next level and step of my life... and i don't feel like i can do it here... i need something to reactivate me... where are you at?