I was single for a long time, and when finally the oppurtunity came to me, and I got a 'taste' of what it was like to be in a real relationship.. I felt like I couldn't go without it..
I've been heartbroken more than once, just because I jumped on a relationship oppurtunity so quickly without thinking.. I just wanted someone to 'love and cherish' me, even if all they were in it for was someone 'mess around' with I felt used a lot but I stuck with it for the "I love you" he gave me afterwards.. once he found a 'real' person to mess around with, he forgot me..
I was very unlucky back then.. after all that shit happened with David and the other David I thought there wasn't anymore hope for me and just tried to do my best to move on..
It's true though, love comes when you least expect it, you just gotta be patient.. Matt's a bit controlling, and so am I so it's a bit hard sometimes.. I've completely abandoned most of my friends for Matt.. there are times where I just want to give it all up because it seems like I'll never be able to get 'physical' with him >.>, at least not for a long time.. Our relationship has been a bit rough, but I know we can make it through everything thrown at us.
Just don't let it bother you, love will come when it's ready.. If you're too desperate about it you might end up getting hurt.. and I don't want to happen to you like it did to me :\
Oh no I know, I'm not going to go out there looking for it, but I know that's my weakness.. jumping on things too quickly. That's what happened last time I suppose.
I jumped on things too quickly, and here I am, severely hurt. However, it's been a learning experience.. I know now not to immediately jump into something serious when I first get into a relationship. I know not to let kind and sweet words get me to do things I'm going to regret.
I've been heartbroken more than once, just because I jumped on a relationship oppurtunity so quickly without thinking.. I just wanted someone to 'love and cherish' me, even if all they were in it for was someone 'mess around' with I felt used a lot but I stuck with it for the "I love you" he gave me afterwards.. once he found a 'real' person to mess around with, he forgot me..
I was very unlucky back then.. after all that shit happened with David and the other David I thought there wasn't anymore hope for me and just tried to do my best to move on..
It's true though, love comes when you least expect it, you just gotta be patient.. Matt's a bit controlling, and so am I so it's a bit hard sometimes.. I've completely abandoned most of my friends for Matt.. there are times where I just want to give it all up because it seems like I'll never be able to get 'physical' with him >.>, at least not for a long time.. Our relationship has been a bit rough, but I know we can make it through everything thrown at us.
Just don't let it bother you, love will come when it's ready.. If you're too desperate about it you might end up getting hurt.. and I don't want to happen to you like it did to me :\
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I jumped on things too quickly, and here I am, severely hurt. However, it's been a learning experience.. I know now not to immediately jump into something serious when I first get into a relationship. I know not to let kind and sweet words get me to do things I'm going to regret.
It was a learning experience I suppose.
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