Been A While...
To think that I haven't written anything in a week and my last post is a reproach on all my friends for not writing (yes I know that is not a complete sentence). So what have I been doing for the past week or so? Let us see, I've been Christmas shopping (I'm learning the meaning of being a comparison shopper), I've been working (a month and change since anything has happened to me in a company car, everyone knock on wood), I've been ignoring school (self-destruction rears its ugly head), I've been rereading some of my favorite sci-fi/fantasy books (an escape from reality) and I've been building upon what I think is a good relationship (no editorial comment, doh!).
I'm trying to gain back my focus in life, I stopped smoking again (I started back for about a week) and I'm going to clean my room and get myself organized. I got myself a savings and checking account (I'm very proud of myself) and have set a budget as to how much I will spend on Christmas. I'm going to go on Saturday to Tanger Mall to finish my Christmas shopping and to decide on what I want for Christmas (I'm leaning towards PC games). My mom is getting me a membership to Baley's (sp?) but I think I would be better served with a NYSC membership. I definitely want to be able to work out at anytime in the day or night.
All that seems to be going through my head is that I have to get out of grips of my apartments and either fail or flourish on my own. I think if I can just be on my own I'll be able to pick up the pieces of my life. The other two thoughts that go through my head are that I have to graduate by next June or I'm going to feel like a complete failure and that for a long time I've been feeling completely alone. I'm not saying that people don't love me or that people don't try to be there for me, it's just that everyone seems to have either drifted away, lost confidence in me or have too many of their own problems to be able to give support. I'm probably just being selfish.
As a reminder to myself, I will make up a six month plan by the 21st.
I'm trying to gain back my focus in life, I stopped smoking again (I started back for about a week) and I'm going to clean my room and get myself organized. I got myself a savings and checking account (I'm very proud of myself) and have set a budget as to how much I will spend on Christmas. I'm going to go on Saturday to Tanger Mall to finish my Christmas shopping and to decide on what I want for Christmas (I'm leaning towards PC games). My mom is getting me a membership to Baley's (sp?) but I think I would be better served with a NYSC membership. I definitely want to be able to work out at anytime in the day or night.
All that seems to be going through my head is that I have to get out of grips of my apartments and either fail or flourish on my own. I think if I can just be on my own I'll be able to pick up the pieces of my life. The other two thoughts that go through my head are that I have to graduate by next June or I'm going to feel like a complete failure and that for a long time I've been feeling completely alone. I'm not saying that people don't love me or that people don't try to be there for me, it's just that everyone seems to have either drifted away, lost confidence in me or have too many of their own problems to be able to give support. I'm probably just being selfish.
As a reminder to myself, I will make up a six month plan by the 21st.