we're fading fast
I am still reserving the entire month of April to be a crazy person. Yes, because hockey and play off spots (and waiting for the Hawks to fuck up, I KNOW THAT IS LURKING IN THERE SOMEWHERE) (yes i have trust issues, hush), but ALSO because new term/new schedule/ looming new work life. Pair that with my usual tendency to go somewhat batshit on the anxiety scale in spring anyway and there's a REALLY GOOD CHANCE I'll become on of those mentos + diet coke videos and foam everywhere.
I really don't know why I forget that I go batshit emotionally every spring but I dooooo and I spend most of all day every day going "i did something horrible, didn't I? WHAT WAS IT? DID I FORGET A THING? IS SOMETHING ON FIRE? DID THE ENTIRE WORLD CHANGE THEIR CLOCKS EXCEPT FOR ME EVEN THOUGH DST ALREADY HAPPENED? DID I ACCIDENTALLY TIME TRAVEL????"
^ the above is actually basically a thought process I had today as I was leaving work, I shit you not. along with MAYBE THE TIME OF THIS SHIFT THAT I HAVE WORKED FOR 2 YEARS NOW HAS SUDDENLY CHANGED AND NO ONE TOLD ME BC WHAT IS LOGIC??? Basically I am going to bake myself some crazy cupcakes next weekend (cherry chip cake mix with cream cheese frosting, it's been decided)
This is of course not helped by my habit of making my spring schedule the heaviest credit/difficulty level load. every year. I DO THIS EVERY YEAR AFTER I PROMISE MYSELF I WON'T. Anyway, it is all tooootally doable in all likelihood, I am just going to be a panicky little shit at least every other day. I HAVE A PATTERN.
In work news: I applied to be a supervisor next year. And I got it!
Of course, I will be moving to a new center. Make that TWO new centers bc while they are not physically merging the two centers, they are having one huger staff group run both. But with less supervisors? And decided I would be great for this? Because why have to learn all the details of ONE new place when I can learn TWO new places and also get to manage like 12 fucking people instead of 7. Remind me to be less good at organizing shit in the future because apparently they only went through with this cuckoo for cocoa puffs plan on even a trial basis because they think I can handle it. Which. WHAT'S YOUR PLAN FOR AFTER I GRADUATE THEN? but details, schmetails.
Countdown to the wedding: too fucking close and yet somehow not over with still. reminder. I fucking hate weddings and I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GO TO THIS ONE, but I figure heeeey I missed both her graduations so I guess I should not bitch about not wanting to go to a wedding I am part of the bridal party of anyway.
In news that is more fun/ exciting, FALL OUT BOOOY! \o/ I have been streaming the album all week and if nothing else, it has been getting me through my finance homework much more calmly than anything else. YAAAY music.
Also, ELEMENTARY! I thought I was really far behind, but turns out it was only one episode. So I caught up AND I even caught the latest as it was happening like on a tv and everything. (and now I wait. siiigh tv). but yes, I LOVE THIS SHOW. A LOT. AND I KNOW IT.
Obviously hockey is happening bc I already mentioned that. And I am planning work meetings around it because I am an AMAZING adult like that. So close to playoffs and crushing disappointment, in any combination or order depending on which teams I mean <3 (please kill me)
All my fannishness right now is basically reserved to actually like. watching hockey games (let's be real, I care way more about the sport than the fic and I want to set the FANDOM on fire more often than anything actually related to the sport. except for Mike Smith's hair, of course) and the super odd selection of random fic from basically any fandom. too much school reading makes me only want to read really good fic though, which loooool is hard to find some places.
I feel like I might try to write? Because I have to write a lot more school papers this term and writing/fail writing fic always seems to go hand in hand with that. Weeee shall see. if nothing else, I will write a lot of rants all over the internet over how everything sucks and I am a lunatic like I did just now. IT'S WORDS. THEY COUNT FOR SOMETHING
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I really don't know why I forget that I go batshit emotionally every spring but I dooooo and I spend most of all day every day going "i did something horrible, didn't I? WHAT WAS IT? DID I FORGET A THING? IS SOMETHING ON FIRE? DID THE ENTIRE WORLD CHANGE THEIR CLOCKS EXCEPT FOR ME EVEN THOUGH DST ALREADY HAPPENED? DID I ACCIDENTALLY TIME TRAVEL????"
^ the above is actually basically a thought process I had today as I was leaving work, I shit you not. along with MAYBE THE TIME OF THIS SHIFT THAT I HAVE WORKED FOR 2 YEARS NOW HAS SUDDENLY CHANGED AND NO ONE TOLD ME BC WHAT IS LOGIC??? Basically I am going to bake myself some crazy cupcakes next weekend (cherry chip cake mix with cream cheese frosting, it's been decided)
This is of course not helped by my habit of making my spring schedule the heaviest credit/difficulty level load. every year. I DO THIS EVERY YEAR AFTER I PROMISE MYSELF I WON'T. Anyway, it is all tooootally doable in all likelihood, I am just going to be a panicky little shit at least every other day. I HAVE A PATTERN.
In work news: I applied to be a supervisor next year. And I got it!
Of course, I will be moving to a new center. Make that TWO new centers bc while they are not physically merging the two centers, they are having one huger staff group run both. But with less supervisors? And decided I would be great for this? Because why have to learn all the details of ONE new place when I can learn TWO new places and also get to manage like 12 fucking people instead of 7. Remind me to be less good at organizing shit in the future because apparently they only went through with this cuckoo for cocoa puffs plan on even a trial basis because they think I can handle it. Which. WHAT'S YOUR PLAN FOR AFTER I GRADUATE THEN? but details, schmetails.
Countdown to the wedding: too fucking close and yet somehow not over with still. reminder. I fucking hate weddings and I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GO TO THIS ONE, but I figure heeeey I missed both her graduations so I guess I should not bitch about not wanting to go to a wedding I am part of the bridal party of anyway.
In news that is more fun/ exciting, FALL OUT BOOOY! \o/ I have been streaming the album all week and if nothing else, it has been getting me through my finance homework much more calmly than anything else. YAAAY music.
Also, ELEMENTARY! I thought I was really far behind, but turns out it was only one episode. So I caught up AND I even caught the latest as it was happening like on a tv and everything. (and now I wait. siiigh tv). but yes, I LOVE THIS SHOW. A LOT. AND I KNOW IT.
Obviously hockey is happening bc I already mentioned that. And I am planning work meetings around it because I am an AMAZING adult like that. So close to playoffs and crushing disappointment, in any combination or order depending on which teams I mean <3 (please kill me)
All my fannishness right now is basically reserved to actually like. watching hockey games (let's be real, I care way more about the sport than the fic and I want to set the FANDOM on fire more often than anything actually related to the sport. except for Mike Smith's hair, of course) and the super odd selection of random fic from basically any fandom. too much school reading makes me only want to read really good fic though, which loooool is hard to find some places.
I feel like I might try to write? Because I have to write a lot more school papers this term and writing/fail writing fic always seems to go hand in hand with that. Weeee shall see. if nothing else, I will write a lot of rants all over the internet over how everything sucks and I am a lunatic like I did just now. IT'S WORDS. THEY COUNT FOR SOMETHING
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