CORONA......extra?
first of all....I haven't posted in longer than I can remember. I was really enjoying it until now, too. I think today I got just a little bit to much shit dropped on me all at once with no one to talk to about it.
seriously...today has been one hell of a day. By six-thirty I was shaking in my seat, choking back tears....and secrets.
I'm not saying I'm not happy tho....I mean so many awesome things have been happening lately that I can hardly stand it. But today was just one of those days. You know, when life knocks you on your feet, you get up, brush yourself off, asnd start walking again. Well I think that by the time I got on my feet I hardly had enough time to blink (let alone clean myself off and start moving again) so I have really goten absolutely nowhere emotionally today.
Aside from just today, school has been EXREMELY stressful now that it's almost the end of teh year. I must admit, however, freshman year has gone by faster than any school year that I've endured yet.
so I guess there are some things I can't say about why I'm kinda upset today. It's not mine to tell....and so yeah. One thign I must say though is that there are a lot of really fucked up things in this world. Seriously I thought I knew the half of it, but I wasn't even gettign started. I swear I will never feel unhappy with my family or my home ever ever again. I have to be one of teh luckiest people in the world.
On a different thought: It just gives me the chills how the past has it's way of coming up to haunt you like a fucking nightmare....or is it a nightmare? I just can't decide. Anyway...the air, the looks, the entire vibe was awkwarder than anything I have ever experienced. Yet slightly eerie at the same time....definitely brought back some crazy...maybe slightly embarrasing...regretful memories. Jesus I have the fucking chills so bad.
On a very opposite and more recent, accurate note: There's a certain someone who has had a tendency to make me smile a lot as of late. At the same time...there are complications...whch tie into a previous subject...yadayadayada....can't really explain it. shit...everythign is so fucking confusing.
I guess the best thign to do right now is just sit back and kindof let thigns flow. This current is to strong to try to control.....I would get swept away down some deadly waterfall if I even tried...so I'll just set up a plastic lawnchair with soem tanning oil and a corona, and sit back to enjoy whatever kind of movie this life turns out to be.
PS: GET GOATS HIGH
seriously...today has been one hell of a day. By six-thirty I was shaking in my seat, choking back tears....and secrets.
I'm not saying I'm not happy tho....I mean so many awesome things have been happening lately that I can hardly stand it. But today was just one of those days. You know, when life knocks you on your feet, you get up, brush yourself off, asnd start walking again. Well I think that by the time I got on my feet I hardly had enough time to blink (let alone clean myself off and start moving again) so I have really goten absolutely nowhere emotionally today.
Aside from just today, school has been EXREMELY stressful now that it's almost the end of teh year. I must admit, however, freshman year has gone by faster than any school year that I've endured yet.
so I guess there are some things I can't say about why I'm kinda upset today. It's not mine to tell....and so yeah. One thign I must say though is that there are a lot of really fucked up things in this world. Seriously I thought I knew the half of it, but I wasn't even gettign started. I swear I will never feel unhappy with my family or my home ever ever again. I have to be one of teh luckiest people in the world.
On a different thought: It just gives me the chills how the past has it's way of coming up to haunt you like a fucking nightmare....or is it a nightmare? I just can't decide. Anyway...the air, the looks, the entire vibe was awkwarder than anything I have ever experienced. Yet slightly eerie at the same time....definitely brought back some crazy...maybe slightly embarrasing...regretful memories. Jesus I have the fucking chills so bad.
On a very opposite and more recent, accurate note: There's a certain someone who has had a tendency to make me smile a lot as of late. At the same time...there are complications...whch tie into a previous subject...yadayadayada....can't really explain it. shit...everythign is so fucking confusing.
I guess the best thign to do right now is just sit back and kindof let thigns flow. This current is to strong to try to control.....I would get swept away down some deadly waterfall if I even tried...so I'll just set up a plastic lawnchair with soem tanning oil and a corona, and sit back to enjoy whatever kind of movie this life turns out to be.
PS: GET GOATS HIGH