Oct 29, 2005 14:59
I dont know what could be worst than my grandfather being very ill and him telling me that I have been his life since I was born, and he is my step-granfather but it dosn't make a difference to me he is my granfather. He's been so important to me all my life and I can't be with him in the hospital because he gets all sentimental and he gets nervous and his blood pressure goes up and he could have a stroke. So not being with him is better for him, but at the same time it makes me feel like a shit head for leaving him in the hospital. I held his hand and cried, I think it's the first time he didn't tell me too stop crying and be a man.
He's always been there, and I know he'll be fine. I hate the hospital the second we walk in there's some shit going on. A old man is in the middle of the hallway with his iv stand thing. Screaming and yelling at everyone the nurse walks in and tells him to go to his room and he says he wants to get a smoke. He gets so angry he clawed his wrists ripping out all the iv's he bled on the floor and the security came to take him with a few doctors to a room. So that didn't make the day any better. I dont know if anyone has seen something like this but it was bad.