six oh eight; the sky is still light on cleveland avenue
I hate Long Island.
I want to move to the city, if I'm ever in a position comfortable enough (financially, i guess) to do so...
I'd love to.
But there's this huge stereotype about New Yorkers and 70% of the time it's kinda true.
That they're all jaded or pretentious.
I'd hate to give in to that.
*
I know it's true one should be loyal to themselves all the time, but half of the time I just want to give in to my desires.
I don't always want to be an artist, but I have to.
I don't always think I'm ugly, but I have to.
I don't want to always be smart, but I have to.
(it'sjustwhatiamandihaveto.)
Relocating to Manhattan has been an ambition since my dad and stepmom moved from there, when I was twelve.
I miss it immenseley, it really is incredible. Not just the architecture or the scenery...
But you just redeem this feeling that it's okay to be yourself for the time being. It's indescribible (to me anyway).
Even the extreme pollution is something that I can get used to (not that I don't hate it).
But sometimes I just want to move further down the coast. To Maryland, or such.
Just because I wanna move away from part of myself. But here is where I am and will always be.
*
But I shouldn't be complaining.
I 'hate' EVERYTHING, don't I?
I want to move to the city, if I'm ever in a position comfortable enough (financially, i guess) to do so...
I'd love to.
But there's this huge stereotype about New Yorkers and 70% of the time it's kinda true.
That they're all jaded or pretentious.
I'd hate to give in to that.
*
I know it's true one should be loyal to themselves all the time, but half of the time I just want to give in to my desires.
I don't always want to be an artist, but I have to.
I don't always think I'm ugly, but I have to.
I don't want to always be smart, but I have to.
(it'sjustwhatiamandihaveto.)
Relocating to Manhattan has been an ambition since my dad and stepmom moved from there, when I was twelve.
I miss it immenseley, it really is incredible. Not just the architecture or the scenery...
But you just redeem this feeling that it's okay to be yourself for the time being. It's indescribible (to me anyway).
Even the extreme pollution is something that I can get used to (not that I don't hate it).
But sometimes I just want to move further down the coast. To Maryland, or such.
Just because I wanna move away from part of myself. But here is where I am and will always be.
*
But I shouldn't be complaining.
I 'hate' EVERYTHING, don't I?