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[chaostheory6966]

This fucking sucks, I just read through Moe's journal and in the last 4 months she has like like 4 guys got naked with one of them made out with 2 of them and supposedly blew/fucked one of them. Not all of this came from her jounal (about what she did with them, but the kisses did)She really dissappoints me I love her and she fucking knows it. Im gonna make her wipe out her entire journal as well, and i know it might sound alittle too possesive but i get real sad when i read about how fucked up she was she smoked and drank how fucking unbelieveable is that?! I could cope with the drinking but smoking is the nastiest fucking thing in the world. There was stuff in there about her giving head to someone because they return the favor. I dont know what to do with this girl, mabey its because i changed that she is taking advantage of it because i dont know just because. She is just REALLY killing me and i dont know if i can hack it much longer and i really wanna stay with her forever. You guys have no clue and you try to pull this shit like i dont deserve her and she dosnt deserve me and that we dont love each other but i gurantee not one of you stupid fucks has ever felt anything remotely close to what i feel for Moe i would die for that girl....I wouldnt even have to second guess it fucking i'd take more than just a bullet for her and i want her to see it and i want all of you to see it. I owe her my life, literally. And there is soo much this girl and i have planned, the names of our kids the color of our house our professions I CANNOT LEAD A NORMAL FUCKING LIFE WITHOUT HER, SO DOING IT IS NOT AN OPTION!

I dont know im just so fucking depressed and shit, Shannon gave me this opium stuff and ive never done drugs in my left but i want ALL of this pain and shit to go away but im afraid of what will happen if i do it. I seriously need someone to talk to so if you see this consider it a cry for help.

I love her<3<3