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[chaosmunky]

today i feel like i've lost everything. my head is in total chaos and i don't know what to do. i miss ian so much. when will i ever see him. my head tells me never. i don't want to die like this. this is the only thing in life that i fear and hate most of all (being alone). all i do now is sit and cry as i wait to die. i'm not ever going to feel the same again. i'm now numb and have no feeling in my body. the only feeling i got now is the lose of what i used to have. that just kills me everyday and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. thanks for listening.
love you all.