the future freaks me out
good lord how relationships complicate life. i think too much of things and too little of myself. and the better a relationship becomes, the better the rewards and the farther from the ground you get to the point that you start to get scared of the possibility of the fall... the worst part of it all is that i don' t care if i shouldn't invest myself in a thing, if it feels right i want to do it no matter what logic tells me. life is too short to be logical. i want to feel everything i can while i still can feel, why the hell not. the hurting is lame, but still a feeling, and therefore better than following logic to avoid possible pain. fuck, nobody knows what i'm talking about anyway i should write this in my personal journal...