ecverything
the computer is still down...
and techniqualy i'm not aloud on this one..
so my fic is on hold on it being posted
it was supposed to be fixed
my uncle was gonna send disks to wipe out the computer
and jsut start all over agian
he hasn't sent them for three weeks
and its anoying..
and i still have homework for honors enhlish this year
*sigh*
but i have chapter three in work and almost finnished
chapter two ended up being longer than i expected, but hey
i'm actuly writing and i'm going to do my best to try and finnish it
that's my goal...to finnish my fic
and maybe even some standalones...hopefully
even if no one reads it i'll at least feel like i tried so...
and i had pre-band camp...all this week
i switched from clarinet to mellophone
i've only been playing for about two weeks and i feel really good about this
i can hit high notes that i didn't expect to
i can reach a high F and i feel really proud that i was able to do that
the freshman suck this year..ok not totaly but kinda
we have one who goes on his right foot when he's supposed to be hitting his left
and doesn't get where his spot is
even when we're trying to direct him their...
then we have one who is jsut so freakin loud
i don't like loud people who are loud to the leval of obnoxiosness(not even a word i'm sure
one girl is okay she trys and she gets it
thankfully
then hannah..the whore who called me a backstabbing bitch
is being all buddy buddy with me now
and i hate it
i jsut do ,it confuses me so much, if u hate me hate me, don't try and be nice to me
i hate that bullshit
act the way u feel towards me, don't jerk me on a leash
then one of my guy friends who really liked her, dated her for a month or so
and he told me they both decided to take a break for summer
because they wern't going to see much of each other
i warned him
i heard all the things she said
about how she wasn't going to get back with him
that it was all a big joke, and she said this right in front of me
i told him,m he deserved to know, and like everyone else he didn't trust me
he thought their was a middle to the story, their wasn't
i told him, i've been through so many friendships where the people who i trusted
i gave my heart out too, they took that trust and abused it
and they jsut through me away
and beacause i've been through it so many times i don't want others to feel like i did
it wouldn't be fair, it isn't
i told him this and he appologized today about not believeing me
i asked how he found out i was telling the truth,
apparently he wanted to get back with her cause band camp started so they could see
more of each other
she said no....she liked someone else...5 years older thatn her
so he's 20..
and he used to play in band he's only here to help out
and work with us for the show and the music
jsut to help out the directors
..anyway
he appologized, many times
so.....yep...
i guess i just don't like it that i'm the liar in every situation
it's always me who's doing the backstabbing
i'm the cause of it all...
and i don't know.....
i don't know....
but on the plus i'm staying over at a real friends house tomarrow
and this weekend i'm getting the debut black veil bride CD
and i saw avenged sevenfold's new video, nightmare
FREAKIN AWESOME!!!!!!!
i loved it
♥♥♥
chaos
and techniqualy i'm not aloud on this one..
so my fic is on hold on it being posted
it was supposed to be fixed
my uncle was gonna send disks to wipe out the computer
and jsut start all over agian
he hasn't sent them for three weeks
and its anoying..
and i still have homework for honors enhlish this year
*sigh*
but i have chapter three in work and almost finnished
chapter two ended up being longer than i expected, but hey
i'm actuly writing and i'm going to do my best to try and finnish it
that's my goal...to finnish my fic
and maybe even some standalones...hopefully
even if no one reads it i'll at least feel like i tried so...
and i had pre-band camp...all this week
i switched from clarinet to mellophone
i've only been playing for about two weeks and i feel really good about this
i can hit high notes that i didn't expect to
i can reach a high F and i feel really proud that i was able to do that
the freshman suck this year..ok not totaly but kinda
we have one who goes on his right foot when he's supposed to be hitting his left
and doesn't get where his spot is
even when we're trying to direct him their...
then we have one who is jsut so freakin loud
i don't like loud people who are loud to the leval of obnoxiosness(not even a word i'm sure
one girl is okay she trys and she gets it
thankfully
then hannah..the whore who called me a backstabbing bitch
is being all buddy buddy with me now
and i hate it
i jsut do ,it confuses me so much, if u hate me hate me, don't try and be nice to me
i hate that bullshit
act the way u feel towards me, don't jerk me on a leash
then one of my guy friends who really liked her, dated her for a month or so
and he told me they both decided to take a break for summer
because they wern't going to see much of each other
i warned him
i heard all the things she said
about how she wasn't going to get back with him
that it was all a big joke, and she said this right in front of me
i told him,m he deserved to know, and like everyone else he didn't trust me
he thought their was a middle to the story, their wasn't
i told him, i've been through so many friendships where the people who i trusted
i gave my heart out too, they took that trust and abused it
and they jsut through me away
and beacause i've been through it so many times i don't want others to feel like i did
it wouldn't be fair, it isn't
i told him this and he appologized today about not believeing me
i asked how he found out i was telling the truth,
apparently he wanted to get back with her cause band camp started so they could see
more of each other
she said no....she liked someone else...5 years older thatn her
so he's 20..
and he used to play in band he's only here to help out
and work with us for the show and the music
jsut to help out the directors
..anyway
he appologized, many times
so.....yep...
i guess i just don't like it that i'm the liar in every situation
it's always me who's doing the backstabbing
i'm the cause of it all...
and i don't know.....
i don't know....
but on the plus i'm staying over at a real friends house tomarrow
and this weekend i'm getting the debut black veil bride CD
and i saw avenged sevenfold's new video, nightmare
FREAKIN AWESOME!!!!!!!
i loved it
♥♥♥
chaos