On the upswing
Lemme start out with some short lyrics that sum up how I feel"
"This is how it works:
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath."
~Regina Spektor, "On the Radio"
It took me hitting rock bottom for me to realize there was a way up. The depression I wouldn't admit to myself these last few months at Steve's is lifting, like an invisible weight on my shoulders is gone. It's showing in my actual weight as well, I've already lost 5 pounds. :)
My parents and I had a long and frank talk and we're TRULY getting along for the first time in years. No secrets, just understanding.
I started a job, and I love it. Working at Office Depot sounded like it was going to be another nightmare, but so far it's been nothing but great. At this point in my Publix career, I was already dreading going to work every day and hating every second of being employed. The people at Office Depot are awesome, and the job truly feels more rewarding.
Travis and I officially broke up... which saddens me, but I think in the long run it's better for both of us. We went into this as Fire and Ice, and that wasn't going to change. I hope we can hang onto our friendship though, I still care about him very much.
My twin soul was in town last week. I was so glad to see her, I've missed Jaime more than I can possibly express. We spent time with Ty and Teri, and then spent most of the rest of the night walking, like we used to. I'm glad to know that even though she and I have both grown, we're still able to talk about everything. I got some things off my chest to her that I have been letting fester inside me for over a year, and she patiently listened and provided feedback.Thanks Jaize, I love you.
I saw Cora recently as well. Hopefully this time there won't be NEARLY as long of a gap between the times that we hang out. I much admire her new outlook on life, she's a joy to be around. Miss Palfy: I'm going to have to visit you soon, or you'll have to come here soon.
A new chapter in my life is beginning, but until I'm entirely sure about things, I don't want to say much more. But thank you SO much to those of you who have been there the last month. You guys really kept me going.
"This is how it works:
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath."
~Regina Spektor, "On the Radio"
It took me hitting rock bottom for me to realize there was a way up. The depression I wouldn't admit to myself these last few months at Steve's is lifting, like an invisible weight on my shoulders is gone. It's showing in my actual weight as well, I've already lost 5 pounds. :)
My parents and I had a long and frank talk and we're TRULY getting along for the first time in years. No secrets, just understanding.
I started a job, and I love it. Working at Office Depot sounded like it was going to be another nightmare, but so far it's been nothing but great. At this point in my Publix career, I was already dreading going to work every day and hating every second of being employed. The people at Office Depot are awesome, and the job truly feels more rewarding.
Travis and I officially broke up... which saddens me, but I think in the long run it's better for both of us. We went into this as Fire and Ice, and that wasn't going to change. I hope we can hang onto our friendship though, I still care about him very much.
My twin soul was in town last week. I was so glad to see her, I've missed Jaime more than I can possibly express. We spent time with Ty and Teri, and then spent most of the rest of the night walking, like we used to. I'm glad to know that even though she and I have both grown, we're still able to talk about everything. I got some things off my chest to her that I have been letting fester inside me for over a year, and she patiently listened and provided feedback.Thanks Jaize, I love you.
I saw Cora recently as well. Hopefully this time there won't be NEARLY as long of a gap between the times that we hang out. I much admire her new outlook on life, she's a joy to be around. Miss Palfy: I'm going to have to visit you soon, or you'll have to come here soon.
A new chapter in my life is beginning, but until I'm entirely sure about things, I don't want to say much more. But thank you SO much to those of you who have been there the last month. You guys really kept me going.