A sigh as i fade to black
My whole 'surrounded by happy couples kill me' syndrome is coming back.... i really do have to stop going to places with couples. it gets freaking depressing and with the whole depressed thing earlier in the year ima say screw that. now I know I’m complaining like a little kid but ya know what i dont care. I’m feeling kinda lonely again and ya know that fucking sucks. I cant even find anyone to talk to anymore. either I don’t talk to the person much anymore or I cant trust them or the subjects too sensitve for talking to the person. Sara is never on anymore, JiL, who I probably trust more than most anyone else, I cant really talk to about some thing, and I really don’t wanna dump my problems on anyone anyway. I guess my capacity is listening. I actually like listening to others problems when they need someone to listen. Makes me feel better, especially if I like the person. So yeah. Im not going out with couples anymore cause im a pathetic, lonely, loser who cant get a girlfriend due to his own idiocy which he realizes is there but cannot seem to change, who is going to shut up now and goodbye. i talk too much....