Well, that was short-lived
Two nights of him showing up and running away at 1:30 like Cinderella. Today he won't even read my messages, so yep,I know exactly where I stand.
Talked to one of my counselors about it this morning and he said that maybe he's just not ready and doesn't know how to say it? I don't know.I think he just used me for the sex like so many other guys out there do.
One of the first things he said to me when we started talking was he mentioned that he was not married and did not have any kids, and he's the same age as me, but he asked me if that was weird.I told him I didn't think it was weird, that everyone walks their own path.
He asked me if I would like our hanging out to happen often. I said of course. He said he wanted a hiking partner.
But then he runs away at 1:30 in the morning?
That's why I question his interest in me...Why would him, someone who used to be a jock in high school, and is still a jock now, be interested in me? I'm just a simple farm girl, single mom, two kids, running a small urban farm in the middle of the city. I'm nothing special to someone who is I guess, what you would call, "normal." He's into things like football, Nike, fancy cars, fancy houses, I'm not any of those things. Not at all a fancy girl.
So yeah, just used for sex again. I'm glad I didn't get too attached, I'm disappointed, but I'm not heartbroken like I was over Shannon. I'm more sad that yet again, I am unable to find the relationship I'm looking for. Even with someone my own age, that I went to HighSchool with and graduated the same year as. Will I ever be able to find that person
I am looking for? I don't know.
People told me to try dating outside the box, I tried that. People told me to try dating people of different ages.I tried that too. It seems like no matter what, I always end up with a narcissist, or someone whojust isn't capable of maintaining an emotional bond with someone that last for a lifetime.
Edit: he finally messaged me back earlier, but didn't have too much to say. Hasn't said anything about getting back together or anything about us in general. So I'm just backing off and if he contacts me, he contacts me. What else should I do?
Talked to one of my counselors about it this morning and he said that maybe he's just not ready and doesn't know how to say it? I don't know.I think he just used me for the sex like so many other guys out there do.
One of the first things he said to me when we started talking was he mentioned that he was not married and did not have any kids, and he's the same age as me, but he asked me if that was weird.I told him I didn't think it was weird, that everyone walks their own path.
He asked me if I would like our hanging out to happen often. I said of course. He said he wanted a hiking partner.
But then he runs away at 1:30 in the morning?
That's why I question his interest in me...Why would him, someone who used to be a jock in high school, and is still a jock now, be interested in me? I'm just a simple farm girl, single mom, two kids, running a small urban farm in the middle of the city. I'm nothing special to someone who is I guess, what you would call, "normal." He's into things like football, Nike, fancy cars, fancy houses, I'm not any of those things. Not at all a fancy girl.
So yeah, just used for sex again. I'm glad I didn't get too attached, I'm disappointed, but I'm not heartbroken like I was over Shannon. I'm more sad that yet again, I am unable to find the relationship I'm looking for. Even with someone my own age, that I went to HighSchool with and graduated the same year as. Will I ever be able to find that person
I am looking for? I don't know.
People told me to try dating outside the box, I tried that. People told me to try dating people of different ages.I tried that too. It seems like no matter what, I always end up with a narcissist, or someone whojust isn't capable of maintaining an emotional bond with someone that last for a lifetime.
Edit: he finally messaged me back earlier, but didn't have too much to say. Hasn't said anything about getting back together or anything about us in general. So I'm just backing off and if he contacts me, he contacts me. What else should I do?