when I'm away she never leaves the house
Well hello kids it's gil, the late night ranger,checkin in so you kids have somewhat of an idea what's on my mind at the moment. Right now I'm in a I really feel like listening to weezer mood.I had a fairly interesting weekend. Friday night was at alexs where we played ddr and watched BASEketball. I fell asleep during BASEketball and it was raining so I didn't get my compy. Saturday was fairly uneventful. I really would like someone to open up to me. I don't know. I like that. I apreciate people I guess when they do it. I feel trusted and well frankly, I enjoy it. Don't mind my bad grammar in the last sentence or anything else I might post.I like driving alone. It's a really great thing for me. The rain further amplifies that feeling. I feel like the world outside is drowned out and I'm in my little cloud of anonymity. The way I feel is sort of a paradox. I actually don't think that's what it is. anywho, I love my time alone. I cherish it a lot of the time, and at the same time I can't really stand not being with someone. Therein lies the innerconflict that drives a person mad. I'm a bit insecure. Not in the way that most people are. I have these little things I can't stand. perhaps it's some sort of paranoia or something. Things like me not able to have people near me sometimes or hating to have an open door near me. It makes me a bit uncomfortable to say the least. I wish I had my little box to crawl into sometimes. Gettin ready to leave is gonna be a bit unnerving. I know it's not for another 8 months but I can't help thinking that this is gonna be the best and most insane time of my life. I hope all goes well I really do. I hope that God my grant me that which he sees fit to go to me. Lastly I'd like to say that music is great. It really helps not only pass the time but inspires me and makes me feel great.oh yea and thanks various homies out there :).
