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Last week I thought I remembered that the man I met in Luin--he was searching a for a way to help the Giant Kharlan Tree, which was in trouble again. So I helped him, and he offered to take me along. That was supposed to be how I met Ratatosk, who wanted to protect his tree. So we searched, and we ended up going across worlds. That was where I met Jaime, and we...we fell in love, and got married.
Everything felt so real. It was strange that everyone remembered getting married at the same time, but all the same I believed what happened really happened because everything else so far has been true. But suddenly everything I remembered in the last week feels like it was something else entirely. It doesn't even feel like just a dream, because my dreams are more vivid than that. And now I remember something else instead and that feels just as real as the last memory.
The man who saved me from bullies was named Richter. He was looking for a girl with a red jewel on her forehead. I'd been hearing a strange howl the whole day, so I tried following it to the lakebed and there I met the girl. She introduced herself as Marta Lualdi. She saved from a monster, and she told me I'd done the same for her too back in Palmacosta, during the Blood Purge. Did I really do that? I don't remember anything except running and looking for my parents and being afraid, and back then I wasn't the kind of person who could really save anyone.
Anyway, after we met Marta went into the caves and I realized that Richter was looking for her, so I went to find him. I wanted to help Richter after what he'd done for me. He was a little scary, but I was glad and kind of proud to be able to do something for him. He was the first person to ever do something nice for me in Luin. He saved me from Dida and Moll, and from my uncle when he yelled at me at the lakebed. Richter taught me courage, and it's because of that that I was able to follow Richter into the caverns. Richter even taught me how to fight there.
I looked up to Richter...I guess I still do, even now. I really do owe him a lot. That's why it's so hard to believe what happened after that.
Partway into the caves, Richter left me behind to fight a monster, and told me to stay back. At first I obeyed because I was scared and didn't want to fight, but then I heard Marta screaming inside. I thought that maybe she and Richter knew each other and were fighting monsters inside, and Marta had gotten hurt or something. I didn't know what I should do at first. I was afraid to go inside, but I couldn't just leave them when I knew they were in trouble. When we first met Marta asked me to save her again if she ever needed help. I still don't remember her from Palmacosta, but even back then I knew that she'd saved me too. So I tried to have courage, and I went in.
But Richter and Marta weren't fighting each other. Richter was actually trying to kill Marta, because of something to do with Ratatosk. At the time I didn't really know what was going on, but I remember that Richter called Ratatosk a demon lord. But Ratatosk is a summon spirit, not a demon lord. Where did he hear that?
I had to do something, so even though I was afraid I finally decided to stop Richter. I was really thankful for everything he'd done for me, but I couldn't just stand by and let him kill Marta. She helped me too, and she trusted me to save her. There was no way I could betray her like that. So I tried to stop Richter, and Marta got away. I tried to talk to Richter again, hoping that both of them could back off and talk things over instead of fighting, but Richter blocked my way so I couldn't go any further and left to go after Marta again. There was someone else involved. Like a talking monster or something. I don't remember much about that.
But that was when I met Tenebrae. He was connected to Ratatosk and the other talking monster somehow, and he offered to let me make a pact to borrow Ratatosk's power and become a Knight of Ratatosk. That way I could gain the power I needed to get out of there and save Marta. I was scared to do it, because Richter had just called Ratatosk a demon lord, and I didn't know if it was true or not. I just knew that I had to save Marta and that I'd have to become a Knight of Ratatosk to do it. So even though I was afraid, I decided to make the pact.
I can't remember what happened after that. I hope I was able to help Marta...or at least, I hope I did if that's what actually happened back then. I don't know anymore. Is this memory real, or is it just going to fade away too? For that matter, what about the rest of my memories? I've known for a while now that some of my memories don't really make sense, but if some of them aren't real then how am I supposed to know which ones are?
I think I liked it better when I thought I was married.
(OOC: I had a more detailed entry on Emil's epic love affair in mind with jokes about Johnny Yong Bosch and imaginary percentage gains but multiple instances of Internet/computer failure kept me back. And this is already enough TL;DR for one entry, huh? 2% spent on Marta up to the pact minus some Ratatosk-related stuff, not anything after making the pact. 12% total regain, 2% remaining.)
Everything felt so real. It was strange that everyone remembered getting married at the same time, but all the same I believed what happened really happened because everything else so far has been true. But suddenly everything I remembered in the last week feels like it was something else entirely. It doesn't even feel like just a dream, because my dreams are more vivid than that. And now I remember something else instead and that feels just as real as the last memory.
The man who saved me from bullies was named Richter. He was looking for a girl with a red jewel on her forehead. I'd been hearing a strange howl the whole day, so I tried following it to the lakebed and there I met the girl. She introduced herself as Marta Lualdi. She saved from a monster, and she told me I'd done the same for her too back in Palmacosta, during the Blood Purge. Did I really do that? I don't remember anything except running and looking for my parents and being afraid, and back then I wasn't the kind of person who could really save anyone.
Anyway, after we met Marta went into the caves and I realized that Richter was looking for her, so I went to find him. I wanted to help Richter after what he'd done for me. He was a little scary, but I was glad and kind of proud to be able to do something for him. He was the first person to ever do something nice for me in Luin. He saved me from Dida and Moll, and from my uncle when he yelled at me at the lakebed. Richter taught me courage, and it's because of that that I was able to follow Richter into the caverns. Richter even taught me how to fight there.
I looked up to Richter...I guess I still do, even now. I really do owe him a lot. That's why it's so hard to believe what happened after that.
Partway into the caves, Richter left me behind to fight a monster, and told me to stay back. At first I obeyed because I was scared and didn't want to fight, but then I heard Marta screaming inside. I thought that maybe she and Richter knew each other and were fighting monsters inside, and Marta had gotten hurt or something. I didn't know what I should do at first. I was afraid to go inside, but I couldn't just leave them when I knew they were in trouble. When we first met Marta asked me to save her again if she ever needed help. I still don't remember her from Palmacosta, but even back then I knew that she'd saved me too. So I tried to have courage, and I went in.
But Richter and Marta weren't fighting each other. Richter was actually trying to kill Marta, because of something to do with Ratatosk. At the time I didn't really know what was going on, but I remember that Richter called Ratatosk a demon lord. But Ratatosk is a summon spirit, not a demon lord. Where did he hear that?
I had to do something, so even though I was afraid I finally decided to stop Richter. I was really thankful for everything he'd done for me, but I couldn't just stand by and let him kill Marta. She helped me too, and she trusted me to save her. There was no way I could betray her like that. So I tried to stop Richter, and Marta got away. I tried to talk to Richter again, hoping that both of them could back off and talk things over instead of fighting, but Richter blocked my way so I couldn't go any further and left to go after Marta again. There was someone else involved. Like a talking monster or something. I don't remember much about that.
But that was when I met Tenebrae. He was connected to Ratatosk and the other talking monster somehow, and he offered to let me make a pact to borrow Ratatosk's power and become a Knight of Ratatosk. That way I could gain the power I needed to get out of there and save Marta. I was scared to do it, because Richter had just called Ratatosk a demon lord, and I didn't know if it was true or not. I just knew that I had to save Marta and that I'd have to become a Knight of Ratatosk to do it. So even though I was afraid, I decided to make the pact.
I can't remember what happened after that. I hope I was able to help Marta...or at least, I hope I did if that's what actually happened back then. I don't know anymore. Is this memory real, or is it just going to fade away too? For that matter, what about the rest of my memories? I've known for a while now that some of my memories don't really make sense, but if some of them aren't real then how am I supposed to know which ones are?
I think I liked it better when I thought I was married.
(OOC: I had a more detailed entry on Emil's epic love affair in mind with jokes about Johnny Yong Bosch and imaginary percentage gains but multiple instances of Internet/computer failure kept me back. And this is already enough TL;DR for one entry, huh? 2% spent on Marta up to the pact minus some Ratatosk-related stuff, not anything after making the pact. 12% total regain, 2% remaining.)