I know I should be cleaning, but I won't have time to do this tomorrow...
In about an hour and a half it will officially be Thursday, August 14 2009.
A year ago me, you, my mom, my dad, and my brother went to the Court House and got our marriage license.
Five years ago, I was getting ready to go to bed because the next day me, you and some friends were going to Yasumicon down in FIU.
I wasn't too sure what to think or do, only that I should "play it cool". No one told me to do that, I just figured it was the best thing to do. I was intrigued by you, I mean, you invested so much time on the phone with me, making me laugh, and over the internet that I couldn't help it. Why would you do such a thing knowing the circumstances I was in at that time?
It was you, me and Rudy in the car because Chrystle was going with either her sister or her friend Pam. I remember having headphones on and not really listening to the music buzzing in my ear, just thinking "play it cool".
We arrived, met up with Chrystle and then I split to hang out with her because I felt a little more comfortable with her than with you only because I wasn't too sure what would happen if I broke my mantra.
Most of the day's events were a blur until the times we ended up together. Chrystle was helping out, and Rudy thought it was best to look for Chrystle for whatever reason, so that left just me and you. We went into the theater place and caught an episode of Samurai7 (I remember because I really wanted to watch it. I still do, actually) and that one weird anime with the guy and his nose hair. By then I remember we were laughing and talking, mostly commenting on how ridiculous the episode was. We ditched the theater and thought it was best to find Rudy and Chrystle.
I don't remember what happened after that, but I do remember we were sitting watching some submissions for an AMV competition and I wanted to talk to Chrystle. I think by then you and I had been alone and you told me how you felt, and I found myself with a broken mantra and a very confused heart. It was Chrystle who made me realize that my situation was really going nowhere, and why should I let someone who was clearly invested in me go by while the other made no moves to prove our relationship was worth continuing?
We were upstairs, close to a room where they were holding the gaming competitions, sitting in the chairs, and you asked me again. I said yes, but with a condition. It was a stupid, silly condition, but you accepted it and I could not believe it.
But I guess you knew you could make that condition go away. Which you did. I resented you for it in the beginning, but now I just realize you helped me out. I was being too nice and not putting my feelings in front. I was thinking of someone else and that someone else wasn't thinking of me.
Geez, I'm starting to cry now. I can't help it.
You gave me so much strength- you still do. Dealing with my parents, even when they said I was going to be the cause of their death. That if they found out I was pregnant I was as good as dead. I still think about those things, but they make me laugh now.
You always tell me to live in the present, but I can't help keep some of the past alive in my mind. It reminds me of where I've been, and where I'm at. And I like where I am at, where we are at.
I'm glad I have you in my life. I feel like you're the only one who I can really depend on, to deal with my ups and downs. My moments of weakness, my moments of elation, of celebration. Not that I don't believe my friends can't do the same thing. I just didn't marry my friends, I married you.
I remember when you asked me to marry you. It was very sweet and to be honest, the best proposal ever. Of all time. Out of every cliched, overly sweet and sickening proposals...I would say ours was truly great. The best.
Its been a crazy year, with all these changes going on. I think I'm adjusting well. Hell, I have to because I'm supposed to be your rock out here. I never thought I would be a cheerleader but, here I am, rooting you on. Don't forget that I will always think of you first, that's why I'm up here! I'm looking forward to the next years of our lives, and I look forward to continuing our strong bond. Everything I wrote you in those months you were gone, I still mean them, and I do believe that we are tied beyond a piece of paper and a ring.
You know as I write this I start to think if you should read this. I mean, I know Meli and Aneadra will read this, but do I want you to read this? Is there some detail I will forget? Or a detail I got all wrong? Will you think this is silly? I guess, it doesn't really matter. I can't help it, I just hope the intent shines through, and that is to just let you know: I love you, happy anniversary.
A year ago me, you, my mom, my dad, and my brother went to the Court House and got our marriage license.
Five years ago, I was getting ready to go to bed because the next day me, you and some friends were going to Yasumicon down in FIU.
I wasn't too sure what to think or do, only that I should "play it cool". No one told me to do that, I just figured it was the best thing to do. I was intrigued by you, I mean, you invested so much time on the phone with me, making me laugh, and over the internet that I couldn't help it. Why would you do such a thing knowing the circumstances I was in at that time?
It was you, me and Rudy in the car because Chrystle was going with either her sister or her friend Pam. I remember having headphones on and not really listening to the music buzzing in my ear, just thinking "play it cool".
We arrived, met up with Chrystle and then I split to hang out with her because I felt a little more comfortable with her than with you only because I wasn't too sure what would happen if I broke my mantra.
Most of the day's events were a blur until the times we ended up together. Chrystle was helping out, and Rudy thought it was best to look for Chrystle for whatever reason, so that left just me and you. We went into the theater place and caught an episode of Samurai7 (I remember because I really wanted to watch it. I still do, actually) and that one weird anime with the guy and his nose hair. By then I remember we were laughing and talking, mostly commenting on how ridiculous the episode was. We ditched the theater and thought it was best to find Rudy and Chrystle.
I don't remember what happened after that, but I do remember we were sitting watching some submissions for an AMV competition and I wanted to talk to Chrystle. I think by then you and I had been alone and you told me how you felt, and I found myself with a broken mantra and a very confused heart. It was Chrystle who made me realize that my situation was really going nowhere, and why should I let someone who was clearly invested in me go by while the other made no moves to prove our relationship was worth continuing?
We were upstairs, close to a room where they were holding the gaming competitions, sitting in the chairs, and you asked me again. I said yes, but with a condition. It was a stupid, silly condition, but you accepted it and I could not believe it.
But I guess you knew you could make that condition go away. Which you did. I resented you for it in the beginning, but now I just realize you helped me out. I was being too nice and not putting my feelings in front. I was thinking of someone else and that someone else wasn't thinking of me.
Geez, I'm starting to cry now. I can't help it.
You gave me so much strength- you still do. Dealing with my parents, even when they said I was going to be the cause of their death. That if they found out I was pregnant I was as good as dead. I still think about those things, but they make me laugh now.
You always tell me to live in the present, but I can't help keep some of the past alive in my mind. It reminds me of where I've been, and where I'm at. And I like where I am at, where we are at.
I'm glad I have you in my life. I feel like you're the only one who I can really depend on, to deal with my ups and downs. My moments of weakness, my moments of elation, of celebration. Not that I don't believe my friends can't do the same thing. I just didn't marry my friends, I married you.
I remember when you asked me to marry you. It was very sweet and to be honest, the best proposal ever. Of all time. Out of every cliched, overly sweet and sickening proposals...I would say ours was truly great. The best.
Its been a crazy year, with all these changes going on. I think I'm adjusting well. Hell, I have to because I'm supposed to be your rock out here. I never thought I would be a cheerleader but, here I am, rooting you on. Don't forget that I will always think of you first, that's why I'm up here! I'm looking forward to the next years of our lives, and I look forward to continuing our strong bond. Everything I wrote you in those months you were gone, I still mean them, and I do believe that we are tied beyond a piece of paper and a ring.
You know as I write this I start to think if you should read this. I mean, I know Meli and Aneadra will read this, but do I want you to read this? Is there some detail I will forget? Or a detail I got all wrong? Will you think this is silly? I guess, it doesn't really matter. I can't help it, I just hope the intent shines through, and that is to just let you know: I love you, happy anniversary.