Counting down.
Jill is still being distant. Says she still loves me but doesn't know if we should be together because of the cancer. It's so painful. At this point all I DO want is to be with her. I mean it's not like we can get time back once it's gone... And we should enjoy each other's companionship and love for every bit it's worth. But alas I can't seem to drive that point across.
Medicine has been out about three days. I have a few Prevacid that I'm trying to stretch out by only taking them every other day but my head is fuzzy from the lack of the Celexa. Worried about the long-term effects. Last time was horribly scary. I don't know what to expect.
Still haven't heard anything back from anywhere I've applied to. Starting to worry about that more as well. Don't have the money to go jobless like this. I can maybe do rent once more. Can't pay anything else and my creditors are hounding me. It's exhausting.
24 days left now until the day I've chosen. Just over three weeks to try to fix my life otherwise it ends. Got chills typing that. It's scary. But living alone and penniless is not going to be how I exist. It's not.
Medicine has been out about three days. I have a few Prevacid that I'm trying to stretch out by only taking them every other day but my head is fuzzy from the lack of the Celexa. Worried about the long-term effects. Last time was horribly scary. I don't know what to expect.
Still haven't heard anything back from anywhere I've applied to. Starting to worry about that more as well. Don't have the money to go jobless like this. I can maybe do rent once more. Can't pay anything else and my creditors are hounding me. It's exhausting.
24 days left now until the day I've chosen. Just over three weeks to try to fix my life otherwise it ends. Got chills typing that. It's scary. But living alone and penniless is not going to be how I exist. It's not.