Murder? *big orphan eyes* May I have another Sir?
I've been feeling strangely renewed and joyous since having a little chat with a friend about direction of will (and the sort of poor behavior to which would be a shame to leave unpunished! *little smirk*) the other day. *thoughtful eyes*.
I came to understand a little more, thus happily slaying that silly part of me which had been foolish enough to have 'forgotten' the importance of remaining strong in the stillness of foundation, and, rather than proceeding with all the patience of Death, I had been weak to allow my pace and course of action to have been but a reaction to my surrounding influences *thoughtful eyes*
*little laugh*...and then, for an instant, upon realization, I felt totally PISSED at myself for allowing this to even happen...simply 'cause I do KNOW better!
*little laugh* *shakes her head*
....however, it's not at all very productive or of use to get all angry at myself....so I'm now happily amused, excited and refreshed in myself! *shakes her ass*.....*eyes of star stuff*
....Sure, the situation was a fiasco, but that I've realized this, has sort of transmuted it into a very positive experience for me, and I am now thankful for my mistaken direction, as it was absolutely necessary for me to re-remember that if I REALLY want to conquer in War, I can't be drifting about, fading into misty clouds while sipping cheap table wine for blood. It is completely absurd to allow oneself to be pre-occupied in display where behaviorism becomes as mere reactionary reflex, especially when there is an Island to fortify! I must keep reminding myself of this, by a sort of perpetual becoming.
*secret little smile*...and there is this seductively sweet added layer of appreciation I've toward the Moon...(and I'm already the sort who's receptive to embrace that nakedness and animal noises seem to go hand in hand with it's fullness) Oh, I am so excited that I can not wait, I must continue to prepare! *eyes of a child* *YAY life!!* *does a little dance*
I came to understand a little more, thus happily slaying that silly part of me which had been foolish enough to have 'forgotten' the importance of remaining strong in the stillness of foundation, and, rather than proceeding with all the patience of Death, I had been weak to allow my pace and course of action to have been but a reaction to my surrounding influences *thoughtful eyes*
*little laugh*...and then, for an instant, upon realization, I felt totally PISSED at myself for allowing this to even happen...simply 'cause I do KNOW better!
*little laugh* *shakes her head*
....however, it's not at all very productive or of use to get all angry at myself....so I'm now happily amused, excited and refreshed in myself! *shakes her ass*.....*eyes of star stuff*
....Sure, the situation was a fiasco, but that I've realized this, has sort of transmuted it into a very positive experience for me, and I am now thankful for my mistaken direction, as it was absolutely necessary for me to re-remember that if I REALLY want to conquer in War, I can't be drifting about, fading into misty clouds while sipping cheap table wine for blood. It is completely absurd to allow oneself to be pre-occupied in display where behaviorism becomes as mere reactionary reflex, especially when there is an Island to fortify! I must keep reminding myself of this, by a sort of perpetual becoming.
*secret little smile*...and there is this seductively sweet added layer of appreciation I've toward the Moon...(and I'm already the sort who's receptive to embrace that nakedness and animal noises seem to go hand in hand with it's fullness) Oh, I am so excited that I can not wait, I must continue to prepare! *eyes of a child* *YAY life!!* *does a little dance*