2008 new year resolutions
ooohhhhhh late for 1 day liao hahaha......... every year will look back on prev year resolution, and see how much i achieved..... this year also the same, though 1 day late (oops now is 2 days cos is 3 jan midnight :P but its ok.... better late than never!)
just went back to read my posts in 2007..... 46 posts (some are private, cos did not write finish.... or too private to be released) as compared to 2006 60+ posts though started this blog in may..... lessen by so much! but hmmm, after going through the posts, suddenly reminded of many unhappy happenings in 2007 :( wow..... what a year......... hmmmmmmmmmmm
anyway, first of all, the resolutions of 2007.... did i achieve anything? *SWEAT*
1. work harder, go for higher positions/challenges instead of being a simple developer role. most importantly is learning more more!!
hmmmm, ok, this year, actually i got to try out higher positions n challenges..... in the beginning of the year still supporting one live project, + working on a web services stuff for another unlaunched proj, which lasted till around feb...... then in feb onwards actually also started on a brand new project, where i have my first "official" experience as a team lead.... honestly say team lead, but actually is still having a leader on top covering the collection of requirements etc, while i m the middleman doing communication between him and another guy.......... but that project was super interesting! touching on things that i never really touched...... was a very nice learning experience, and having to deal with many issues by myself cos no one else knows......... had my happy days, stress days, angry days, etc etc......... good thing the guy working with me was very friendly, though have more years of exp than me, dun mind listening to my "commands" haha...... anyway this project gave me an opportunity to travel to a super foreign country, staying there for 11 days, enjoyed alot of freedom + experiencing some 'independence' life that i had wanted to have....... was a good trip there, though its really really tiring for me, and broke down crying one of the days somemore cos of the stress i was handling then.............
after that project simmered down by a bit, then got a new task, to go to KL by myself to provide training and consultation! brand new challenge once again........ that was one kind of experience which really tells me that i made a good choice of not going into teaching but into IT sector LOL! staying in the city of KL, travelling everyday to work place via cab for 40 min! and getting into some sort of financial difficulty due to the cab fare *sweat* but with the help of temp, managed to survive through the days........ the trip to KL was the first one travelling alone to a foreign country for work.... via flight somemore (first time travelling to KL by air haha) and giving training + resolving issues the people there had on hand..... had good support from frens in sg, and days pass by pretty well, with frens consistently contacting me via msn/yahoo to stay in touch....
after the trip, was really worn out by then, and had requested for a 2wk leave from boss, hoping to take a good break, but ened up falling into a super severe illness, which i almost thought is dengue fever.................. as i had a seminar to attend, still went to the seminar with the illness........ anyway that day happened to become the worst day that i ever had in my company even though i was on leave, super sick........... curb my tears until walking near funan and finally broke down and called someone to talk.......... super embarrassing to think about it sia... cos i m not one who reveal my sadness out openly, yet that day was really so so so bad that i broke down in the open.......... that matter got quite serious amongst ppl who knew, and also led to some of my busy days also in the later part of the year :S
anyway something challenging came into my view, which is to lead a project as a PM..... was wondering if i could really do it, then was also looking super forward to it cos of the new challenges i will be facing........ even though with that unhappiness issue that happened, eventually managed to put that issue aside and rolled into this project as the PM... this project works with a guy who used to be in my company for ages....... considered super senior person, and honestly in the beginning was super worried if i could handle him....... anyway he was nowhere near my idols in the company in terms of skillsets n knowledge, and basic stuffs also cannot handle....... and while handling this project as a PM position, was roped back into the 1st project i have this year (the one travelling overseas).... this time working on the other part of the system, which was originally handled by another guy.......... had a pretty hard time understanding stuffs, + a short time frame..... last but not least, the project that i was in for the past 2 years! i m still in that project, and now was moving on to become a "do-everything" lady........ at the end of year, a new gal was introduced to my team, and had some funny times guiding her to take over the project, however, by the end of the year, she is being pulled out to do another project once again.... so back to my lonely life in that project......... went to the country by myself as well, handling users, doing UAT etc............ was a pretty interesting experience once again.......
at the last week of the year, my friend suggested creating some facebook applications as well, and I decided to help him with it........... so started my development in php........ pretty easy language to learn, and also getting to work with a super smart guy.... learning alot from him as well...... is like, i have not had so much fun in development for quite some time already, due to the fact that i was doing PM stuffs in the 2nd half of the year, so is a good experience for me, and learning loads of stuffs :D
overall this year, i did get what i wanted to achieve, to do something more than a plain developer....... getting to lead a super mini team of 1 guy as a PL, then 2 projects taking up the role of a PM...... a pretty nice experience and learning spree.............. :D
2. maintain a close relationship with group of friends, and hopefully can end the year with a S.O beside me.....
hmmmmm, this part mah......... honestly i glanced through my 5 resolutions, only #1 was completed :(
anyway, this year, actually is a year of sadness for me ba........... first of all is definitely the final decision of my buddy leaving company..... honestly i'm already mentally prepared for this day to come, esp during our chats..... can tell is coming soon..... during those days, i have wondered before, if he really leaves, do i still stay? haha...... little gal was correct when she commented: i thought you will also leave our company after he leaves...... hahaha....... well ended up I m still in same company.... but maintained a close relationship with buddy.... meeting up for meals, catching up on happenings, etc etc............. but sad to say that chances of us meeting up for meals will be much lesser from now on, but i can understand lar, so is ok.........
the other close friend i had in office, taco, had some frequent meetups with her in the beginning, but due to the busy schedules, is been some time since I meet up with her liao.......... hope can continue the close relationship again......
the one that I m super close with this year is bound to be my big sis in ex-company liao...... her hubby overseas studying, so she pretty free to meet me haha....... went out so often last year, can be said as the one whom i m closest with, outside company hahaha........... she encourage me to make a change in my dressings etc, and bring me to a shop and shop shop for clothings... now my wardrobe is packed, and pocket burnt, thanks to her HAHA............. anyway, is good to have someone listening to all my love problems hahaha.......
company wise, first on my gang of lunch kakis ba..... turtle, lollipop, tiger mouse....... towards the end of the year slowly i feel like my gang is evolving....... 3 of them joined into the same project now, and fighting hard together........... makes me feel super sad sometimes, that I am not fighting with them together....... the same old feeling I felt towards my buddy when he was in that project...... maybe can say i 身在福中不知福 ba...... but sometimes is like, we go lunch together, and the people together are all in the same project, discussing stuffs together, while I m the odd one out...... sighz.........
anyway, cos of facebook, my relation with turtle became closer haha..... mid year, he decided to leave the company, but after that came back again....... then we got addicted to facebook, fluff friends, and started to do silly stuffs like "pet"ting, "poke"ing, racing, etc etc..... was super fun yet silly hahaha.......... then the sotong family RN also in facebook and busy throwing pillows, roses related stuff, chocolates to one another.... haha.......... then with another group of kakis, the dota gang, got pretty close to the ppl in company who still plays dota..... ikan, boy etc..... too bad my laptop been having problems, crashing while gaming..... :( sad sad....... that's why feel like wanting to buy a new comp....... hahaha..............
basically friendship wise, maintained a relationship with the ppl whom i was already close with.............
as for love wise, can tell that this year wasnt a smooth one for me, from the beginning wondering if i fell in love with a real or virtual person, to trying to find out whether the person likes me anot, to feeling hurt whenever trying to find out the feelings........ honestly i duno whether he is the one for me anot, and whether i m the one for him anot, cos we do have many differences, and he gives me the feeling that he is one whom do not want to be committed to any relationship...... and this feeling is not only i getting it, friends who know both of us, also say the same thing abt him also............. so........ :(
3. go to Taiwan/Korea/Japan/Hong Kong.....
this year my travelling is majorly on work!
20070105 - JB - project team outing with lollipop, tiger mouse and PM!
20070429 - 20070509 - Doha, Qatar - project
20070603 - 20070612 - KL - conduct training alone
20070703 - 20070705 - Brunei - project with SS
20071019 - 20071021 - Seremban - company retreat!
20071106 - 20071111 - Jakarta - buddy's wedding~~~ + travelling!
20071209 - 20071213 - Brunei - project alone
hmmmmm, din go to the places i had planned totally........ but well, i had enjoyed myself also, opportunities to fly around places, staying by myself........ it also made me realise the inadequacy of my knowledge, either in programming (the ppl asked me about stored procedures!) or real life (cannot drive!!! ARGH!).......
4. remain cheerful, improve EQ, reduce bad-temper, take things easy, dun think too much....
hmmmm, 2007 can be said as the most unhappy year i had ba..... even while looking back, i feel so depressed........... tried my best not to display my happiness/unhappiness also......... mind keep moving around thinking alot of things that i shouldnt be thinking..... ended up making myself feel sad..... :(
5. slim down!
haha, can definitely say i did not succeed at all....... went to gym a couple of times, din last for long haha.........
ok ok, so now, whats up for this year?
1. learn driving!
2. learn more things in work, hopefully working on a proper project as leader leading a few people, attend more seminars, do more free-time coding~~~
3.maintain closer relationship with friends, making more friends, and hopefully find the real Mr Right...
4. stay happy, reduce bad-temper, take things easy, dun think too much, improve on my EQ....
hmmm, as you can see, 3 n 4 repeating from last year....... hopefully can really achieve it!
just went back to read my posts in 2007..... 46 posts (some are private, cos did not write finish.... or too private to be released) as compared to 2006 60+ posts though started this blog in may..... lessen by so much! but hmmm, after going through the posts, suddenly reminded of many unhappy happenings in 2007 :( wow..... what a year......... hmmmmmmmmmmm
anyway, first of all, the resolutions of 2007.... did i achieve anything? *SWEAT*
1. work harder, go for higher positions/challenges instead of being a simple developer role. most importantly is learning more more!!
hmmmm, ok, this year, actually i got to try out higher positions n challenges..... in the beginning of the year still supporting one live project, + working on a web services stuff for another unlaunched proj, which lasted till around feb...... then in feb onwards actually also started on a brand new project, where i have my first "official" experience as a team lead.... honestly say team lead, but actually is still having a leader on top covering the collection of requirements etc, while i m the middleman doing communication between him and another guy.......... but that project was super interesting! touching on things that i never really touched...... was a very nice learning experience, and having to deal with many issues by myself cos no one else knows......... had my happy days, stress days, angry days, etc etc......... good thing the guy working with me was very friendly, though have more years of exp than me, dun mind listening to my "commands" haha...... anyway this project gave me an opportunity to travel to a super foreign country, staying there for 11 days, enjoyed alot of freedom + experiencing some 'independence' life that i had wanted to have....... was a good trip there, though its really really tiring for me, and broke down crying one of the days somemore cos of the stress i was handling then.............
after that project simmered down by a bit, then got a new task, to go to KL by myself to provide training and consultation! brand new challenge once again........ that was one kind of experience which really tells me that i made a good choice of not going into teaching but into IT sector LOL! staying in the city of KL, travelling everyday to work place via cab for 40 min! and getting into some sort of financial difficulty due to the cab fare *sweat* but with the help of temp, managed to survive through the days........ the trip to KL was the first one travelling alone to a foreign country for work.... via flight somemore (first time travelling to KL by air haha) and giving training + resolving issues the people there had on hand..... had good support from frens in sg, and days pass by pretty well, with frens consistently contacting me via msn/yahoo to stay in touch....
after the trip, was really worn out by then, and had requested for a 2wk leave from boss, hoping to take a good break, but ened up falling into a super severe illness, which i almost thought is dengue fever.................. as i had a seminar to attend, still went to the seminar with the illness........ anyway that day happened to become the worst day that i ever had in my company even though i was on leave, super sick........... curb my tears until walking near funan and finally broke down and called someone to talk.......... super embarrassing to think about it sia... cos i m not one who reveal my sadness out openly, yet that day was really so so so bad that i broke down in the open.......... that matter got quite serious amongst ppl who knew, and also led to some of my busy days also in the later part of the year :S
anyway something challenging came into my view, which is to lead a project as a PM..... was wondering if i could really do it, then was also looking super forward to it cos of the new challenges i will be facing........ even though with that unhappiness issue that happened, eventually managed to put that issue aside and rolled into this project as the PM... this project works with a guy who used to be in my company for ages....... considered super senior person, and honestly in the beginning was super worried if i could handle him....... anyway he was nowhere near my idols in the company in terms of skillsets n knowledge, and basic stuffs also cannot handle....... and while handling this project as a PM position, was roped back into the 1st project i have this year (the one travelling overseas).... this time working on the other part of the system, which was originally handled by another guy.......... had a pretty hard time understanding stuffs, + a short time frame..... last but not least, the project that i was in for the past 2 years! i m still in that project, and now was moving on to become a "do-everything" lady........ at the end of year, a new gal was introduced to my team, and had some funny times guiding her to take over the project, however, by the end of the year, she is being pulled out to do another project once again.... so back to my lonely life in that project......... went to the country by myself as well, handling users, doing UAT etc............ was a pretty interesting experience once again.......
at the last week of the year, my friend suggested creating some facebook applications as well, and I decided to help him with it........... so started my development in php........ pretty easy language to learn, and also getting to work with a super smart guy.... learning alot from him as well...... is like, i have not had so much fun in development for quite some time already, due to the fact that i was doing PM stuffs in the 2nd half of the year, so is a good experience for me, and learning loads of stuffs :D
overall this year, i did get what i wanted to achieve, to do something more than a plain developer....... getting to lead a super mini team of 1 guy as a PL, then 2 projects taking up the role of a PM...... a pretty nice experience and learning spree.............. :D
2. maintain a close relationship with group of friends, and hopefully can end the year with a S.O beside me.....
hmmmmm, this part mah......... honestly i glanced through my 5 resolutions, only #1 was completed :(
anyway, this year, actually is a year of sadness for me ba........... first of all is definitely the final decision of my buddy leaving company..... honestly i'm already mentally prepared for this day to come, esp during our chats..... can tell is coming soon..... during those days, i have wondered before, if he really leaves, do i still stay? haha...... little gal was correct when she commented: i thought you will also leave our company after he leaves...... hahaha....... well ended up I m still in same company.... but maintained a close relationship with buddy.... meeting up for meals, catching up on happenings, etc etc............. but sad to say that chances of us meeting up for meals will be much lesser from now on, but i can understand lar, so is ok.........
the other close friend i had in office, taco, had some frequent meetups with her in the beginning, but due to the busy schedules, is been some time since I meet up with her liao.......... hope can continue the close relationship again......
the one that I m super close with this year is bound to be my big sis in ex-company liao...... her hubby overseas studying, so she pretty free to meet me haha....... went out so often last year, can be said as the one whom i m closest with, outside company hahaha........... she encourage me to make a change in my dressings etc, and bring me to a shop and shop shop for clothings... now my wardrobe is packed, and pocket burnt, thanks to her HAHA............. anyway, is good to have someone listening to all my love problems hahaha.......
company wise, first on my gang of lunch kakis ba..... turtle, lollipop, tiger mouse....... towards the end of the year slowly i feel like my gang is evolving....... 3 of them joined into the same project now, and fighting hard together........... makes me feel super sad sometimes, that I am not fighting with them together....... the same old feeling I felt towards my buddy when he was in that project...... maybe can say i 身在福中不知福 ba...... but sometimes is like, we go lunch together, and the people together are all in the same project, discussing stuffs together, while I m the odd one out...... sighz.........
anyway, cos of facebook, my relation with turtle became closer haha..... mid year, he decided to leave the company, but after that came back again....... then we got addicted to facebook, fluff friends, and started to do silly stuffs like "pet"ting, "poke"ing, racing, etc etc..... was super fun yet silly hahaha.......... then the sotong family RN also in facebook and busy throwing pillows, roses related stuff, chocolates to one another.... haha.......... then with another group of kakis, the dota gang, got pretty close to the ppl in company who still plays dota..... ikan, boy etc..... too bad my laptop been having problems, crashing while gaming..... :( sad sad....... that's why feel like wanting to buy a new comp....... hahaha..............
basically friendship wise, maintained a relationship with the ppl whom i was already close with.............
as for love wise, can tell that this year wasnt a smooth one for me, from the beginning wondering if i fell in love with a real or virtual person, to trying to find out whether the person likes me anot, to feeling hurt whenever trying to find out the feelings........ honestly i duno whether he is the one for me anot, and whether i m the one for him anot, cos we do have many differences, and he gives me the feeling that he is one whom do not want to be committed to any relationship...... and this feeling is not only i getting it, friends who know both of us, also say the same thing abt him also............. so........ :(
3. go to Taiwan/Korea/Japan/Hong Kong.....
this year my travelling is majorly on work!
20070105 - JB - project team outing with lollipop, tiger mouse and PM!
20070429 - 20070509 - Doha, Qatar - project
20070603 - 20070612 - KL - conduct training alone
20070703 - 20070705 - Brunei - project with SS
20071019 - 20071021 - Seremban - company retreat!
20071106 - 20071111 - Jakarta - buddy's wedding~~~ + travelling!
20071209 - 20071213 - Brunei - project alone
hmmmmm, din go to the places i had planned totally........ but well, i had enjoyed myself also, opportunities to fly around places, staying by myself........ it also made me realise the inadequacy of my knowledge, either in programming (the ppl asked me about stored procedures!) or real life (cannot drive!!! ARGH!).......
4. remain cheerful, improve EQ, reduce bad-temper, take things easy, dun think too much....
hmmmm, 2007 can be said as the most unhappy year i had ba..... even while looking back, i feel so depressed........... tried my best not to display my happiness/unhappiness also......... mind keep moving around thinking alot of things that i shouldnt be thinking..... ended up making myself feel sad..... :(
5. slim down!
haha, can definitely say i did not succeed at all....... went to gym a couple of times, din last for long haha.........
ok ok, so now, whats up for this year?
1. learn driving!
2. learn more things in work, hopefully working on a proper project as leader leading a few people, attend more seminars, do more free-time coding~~~
3.maintain closer relationship with friends, making more friends, and hopefully find the real Mr Right...
4. stay happy, reduce bad-temper, take things easy, dun think too much, improve on my EQ....
hmmm, as you can see, 3 n 4 repeating from last year....... hopefully can really achieve it!