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the whole "serenity now" approach that I had been taking to everything has sort of blown up in my face. I have tried and tried and tried, but I have to remember that I live with teenagers who don't really care about how I think or feel. I don't try to be bitchy and I sent out a brief email basically saying, "yo. clean up. the house is gross. thanks" and no reply, no action. Its gross! So what do you do then? You have to step it up a bit... ohhhh my God, I'm NOT YOUR MOM!! I had just made the kitchen fucking immaculate and the thanks I get was a disgusting mess again. I hate it when people are defensive and I hate arguing with my roommate because she does not know how to communicate effectively so I end up even more pissed after we talk. She'd get a lot out of Interpersonal Communication. It sends me into a raging cycle and I usually just have to leave. Like I've come to realize, there are toxic people out there who just make everything worse. Cleaning the kitchen or cleaning up anything for that matter (like pretty much the entire upstairs that hasn't been touched since I got back) is not a difficult request. But if its not your mess... why get defensive about it? Why get bitchy about it? If I went to talk to Katie, its not like she'd blow up in my face about it because she knows its not her mess! Soooo fucking pointless. I can't wait to move out. 35 days until Hawaii, so basically I'll be gone then. I can't wait until the moment when I start packing all of my shit up into boxes so I can feel like this horrible mess of 118 Normal can be over. I can't even tell you what I'd give to live with Zanobia again. =) What a love!! After this upcoming year, I never want a roommate again unless its Katie Scupham lol. Peace out.