Life kind of sucks today.
The reason for that is because I've been coughing like a smoker since Tuesday night, and believe me, I've never smoked a day in my life. I think it's either an alergic reaction to my having swept the bathroom without a dust-mask on Monday or it's a chest-cold, either one of which would kind of suck. It's better today thankfully, but still there.
On a happier note, I finally got some work done on my writing portfolio for my humanities class last night. I love it when my writer's block breaks and the stories just kind of write themselves!
On another happy note, I picked up my Kopit/Yeston Phantom on Tuesday! Yay! It only took me three tries ordering the thing to finally get it! I still think that I'm going to wait till Christmas day to actually open and listen to it though, kind of as my Christmas present to myself. That way I'll feel less guilty about having spent the money on it especially since it'll be touch and go to be able to get Mom's present. I had hoped to get Kingdom of Heaven for her on Tuesday along with my Phantom, because that's her current top favourite movie and I know she'd love to get it for Christmas. But that would have been sixty bucks! And I just couldn't justify spending that much money at once. I probably should have gotten Mom's Christmas present instead of the Phantom, but I couldn't bring myself to let it go again. So I really hope I'll be able to get it later in the month. If worse comes to worse, I'll get it for her right before Christmas when my disability money comes in, although I'd really rather not leave it that much to the last minute. And, God forgive me, the money is so tight right now that it was tempting for a moment to not get her anything, especially since she's told me a couple of times not to in her usual self-sacrificing way. I guess that's my inner demon of selfishness coming out, made worse by the fact that I know that she would actually understand if I did do that. But I can't have bought myself a present and then not get anything for her. That would be aweful and selfish, and just a typical 21st century spoiled brat, and I don't want to do that especially for Christmas! It's so hard not to give in to the selfishness that the more materialistic aspect of the holidays can give rise to and to keep the spending in the proper spirit, that is to say of giving not getting.
If I do have to buy her present at the last minute though, I'm going to have to budget that money *very* carefully, as it will have to go for her present, for whatever she's going to get for me, for my presents to my step-family and for Christmas dinner. That's going to be really tight! Yikes! God I hope that other money from my old school comes in, either that or that I get a pay-check before Christmas though I doubt that that will happen unfortunately. Either one would help a lot though!
Anyway, I think I'm going to go make myself a second cup of tea before I go fetch my laundry. My first one got cold too quickly because my room is freakin freezing! And that's with the window shut!
On a happier note, I finally got some work done on my writing portfolio for my humanities class last night. I love it when my writer's block breaks and the stories just kind of write themselves!
On another happy note, I picked up my Kopit/Yeston Phantom on Tuesday! Yay! It only took me three tries ordering the thing to finally get it! I still think that I'm going to wait till Christmas day to actually open and listen to it though, kind of as my Christmas present to myself. That way I'll feel less guilty about having spent the money on it especially since it'll be touch and go to be able to get Mom's present. I had hoped to get Kingdom of Heaven for her on Tuesday along with my Phantom, because that's her current top favourite movie and I know she'd love to get it for Christmas. But that would have been sixty bucks! And I just couldn't justify spending that much money at once. I probably should have gotten Mom's Christmas present instead of the Phantom, but I couldn't bring myself to let it go again. So I really hope I'll be able to get it later in the month. If worse comes to worse, I'll get it for her right before Christmas when my disability money comes in, although I'd really rather not leave it that much to the last minute. And, God forgive me, the money is so tight right now that it was tempting for a moment to not get her anything, especially since she's told me a couple of times not to in her usual self-sacrificing way. I guess that's my inner demon of selfishness coming out, made worse by the fact that I know that she would actually understand if I did do that. But I can't have bought myself a present and then not get anything for her. That would be aweful and selfish, and just a typical 21st century spoiled brat, and I don't want to do that especially for Christmas! It's so hard not to give in to the selfishness that the more materialistic aspect of the holidays can give rise to and to keep the spending in the proper spirit, that is to say of giving not getting.
If I do have to buy her present at the last minute though, I'm going to have to budget that money *very* carefully, as it will have to go for her present, for whatever she's going to get for me, for my presents to my step-family and for Christmas dinner. That's going to be really tight! Yikes! God I hope that other money from my old school comes in, either that or that I get a pay-check before Christmas though I doubt that that will happen unfortunately. Either one would help a lot though!
Anyway, I think I'm going to go make myself a second cup of tea before I go fetch my laundry. My first one got cold too quickly because my room is freakin freezing! And that's with the window shut!