This past wknd
Hmm this weekend was pretty interesting.
Friday i didnt do much. Just sat home had a couple drinks and watched some movies. it was refreshing. Plus i knew i was going to see jr saturday so i didnt want to be hung over or anything.
Saturday me, iyanna, and mommy went to see jr. it was really good seeing him. i was very happy to see him. my mom however was getting on my nerves, esp once we entered the waiting room to see him. i do believe shes suceptible to evil spirits because she changed up quickly and cursed and im like greaat. then she wasnt trying to have yanna read books or me read the whole story. whats the point of having a book if ur not reading the entire book?? its stupid to me. and eventhough i huffed i didnt read the book...iyannas old enough to start learning to read and i need to be part of it.
I think i respect my mother too much not to listen to her which pisses me off because i listen to her even when i dont think i should be. and this also is because i just really dont feel like hearing her argue or make a face and be pissed. shes such a stubborn lady, i tell ya.
jr wants me to come down there every week. this nigga is buggin. he honestly had the nerve to say whats more important to coming to see your brother? nothing however it costs money and thats unnecessarily being spent. i prefer to use MY money that i pay for on me. and i can write but to drive which is a $40 trip is not going to happen. plus its a whole fuckin days time. i wont say waste but seriously. if i wanna be in and out, i need to be there before the doors open, which means by 12-1230... which means leaving by 1030, and i still dont get in until 130- and stay til 3-330, which brings me home by 530...yea fuck that. ive said it before and ill say it again. its not my sentence, im there for you but im not doing the bid with u, its not easy and it shouldnt be, YOU did the crime not i. So when I can make it i will but i am not necessarily going out of my way. its not fair to me nor do u have the right to ask me to. my mom of course would love to, but not me. im sorry.
then this dude wanna tell me that he was converting to muslim. ha! i know my face was just like, wow! seriously? and i may have even said it but i was not going to say anything. i mean people have their choices. he said how it was his first decision he made on his own...umm what about when u decided to do what u did?? but whatever, everyone chooses thier own path and i am not going to stand in the way, even if maybe i should...but everyone has a choice in the religion they choose.not like i would disown him or something.
So after i got home i went and dropped everyone off, and went to travis' to help him move and pack more. since he was leaving the next day. i was there for about 3-4 hours and then finished the nite off at nicoles house. we watched the ending of tru blood. seriously tara is shot dead?? like it was right between the eyes. nicole and i made a bet...she says that tara will be brought back...i say she is gone. we bet $10. i mean nicole is prolly right because Tara is a huge fucking deal on the show, not as important as Lafayette, but still. We'll see who wins. I wish it was time to watch it again lol.
sunday...yesterday...i did some intense cleaning. at my own house after grabbing all the alcohol out of travos fridge. i got some cherry sky vodka, some wine, about 6 bud lights, some black cherry jim beam whiskey and a nip of some crown royale whiskey. not to mention i already had about 8 budlights already and a pint of rum. so im good in the alcohol department right now. cant say i wont need to go to the liquor store on friday but *shrugs*.
so me and sheree watched the patriots game. we started out at powers then went to the old ground round place, got a free appetizer and a beer. then we headed to my house for a session. i was definetly feeling good because i had started to drink at like 2pm so yea i was feeling good. i guess laurent called and told her that he had won $1300 bucks. funny how she had to take his call outside, but whatever. she was ready to go right away but she finished her beer first. i dropped her off bc they were goin to chili's. i headed to marius' because i wanted to fuck but i ended up just watchin a lil tv and bounced. i had recieved a text from sheree askin if i wanted to chill but i ignored because i figured it was an old text and since she knows i veto hangin with laurent i headed home.
i went home, munched out and went to bed. i woke up this morning to sheree saying how laurent wants me to come chill. i asked why he wants me to chill? she said "he felt bad last nite like we stopped hangin out cuz of him and he wanted me to come." so she wants me to come next time and let him buy me a beer or something. i ended that convo with "oh. yea...that will never happen, he can give u the money..im just getting back to wanting us to hang out"
yea i still dont think she gets how much that shit hurt. not only because i had told her right away when i met him and how i thought he was cute, but then when i had him drop the bag off how i asked her how cute he was. like i was def fuckin diggin this dude. and because i didnt fuck him right away or because for some odd reason i shook whenever i was around him didnt mean i didnt like him. so hopefully she gets an idea of how much that shit hurt. and then for her not to apologize. or to be the one to tell me who it was. i mean i wudnt even think she cared/noticed that it could possibly be wrong for the fact that she was hiding it from me.
like i know i will see him and instantly be reminded how he was the one who showed me that the one i considered to be my number one friend of them all...should never have been put on that type of pedestal in my life. like she doesnt deserve to be my friend because we dont have the same values..and i thought we did. i can push it out of my mind when im with sheree because i love her and that shit dont just go away and shes always a good time. but i couldnt do them both together. i know id just want to walk away..maybe even do what i wanted to in the beginning and walk away from shere as well, and i obviously dont want to... and thats that.
today i have derby practice. why did i wake up to a sore ass today? i havent all weekend. its like my body knows that i have practice today. i think i want to do some warming up before going today. maybe do a little yoga and some core. i cant wait to buy some skates of my own! i am improving a little each practice...but not fast enough for me.
Friday i didnt do much. Just sat home had a couple drinks and watched some movies. it was refreshing. Plus i knew i was going to see jr saturday so i didnt want to be hung over or anything.
Saturday me, iyanna, and mommy went to see jr. it was really good seeing him. i was very happy to see him. my mom however was getting on my nerves, esp once we entered the waiting room to see him. i do believe shes suceptible to evil spirits because she changed up quickly and cursed and im like greaat. then she wasnt trying to have yanna read books or me read the whole story. whats the point of having a book if ur not reading the entire book?? its stupid to me. and eventhough i huffed i didnt read the book...iyannas old enough to start learning to read and i need to be part of it.
I think i respect my mother too much not to listen to her which pisses me off because i listen to her even when i dont think i should be. and this also is because i just really dont feel like hearing her argue or make a face and be pissed. shes such a stubborn lady, i tell ya.
jr wants me to come down there every week. this nigga is buggin. he honestly had the nerve to say whats more important to coming to see your brother? nothing however it costs money and thats unnecessarily being spent. i prefer to use MY money that i pay for on me. and i can write but to drive which is a $40 trip is not going to happen. plus its a whole fuckin days time. i wont say waste but seriously. if i wanna be in and out, i need to be there before the doors open, which means by 12-1230... which means leaving by 1030, and i still dont get in until 130- and stay til 3-330, which brings me home by 530...yea fuck that. ive said it before and ill say it again. its not my sentence, im there for you but im not doing the bid with u, its not easy and it shouldnt be, YOU did the crime not i. So when I can make it i will but i am not necessarily going out of my way. its not fair to me nor do u have the right to ask me to. my mom of course would love to, but not me. im sorry.
then this dude wanna tell me that he was converting to muslim. ha! i know my face was just like, wow! seriously? and i may have even said it but i was not going to say anything. i mean people have their choices. he said how it was his first decision he made on his own...umm what about when u decided to do what u did?? but whatever, everyone chooses thier own path and i am not going to stand in the way, even if maybe i should...but everyone has a choice in the religion they choose.not like i would disown him or something.
So after i got home i went and dropped everyone off, and went to travis' to help him move and pack more. since he was leaving the next day. i was there for about 3-4 hours and then finished the nite off at nicoles house. we watched the ending of tru blood. seriously tara is shot dead?? like it was right between the eyes. nicole and i made a bet...she says that tara will be brought back...i say she is gone. we bet $10. i mean nicole is prolly right because Tara is a huge fucking deal on the show, not as important as Lafayette, but still. We'll see who wins. I wish it was time to watch it again lol.
sunday...yesterday...i did some intense cleaning. at my own house after grabbing all the alcohol out of travos fridge. i got some cherry sky vodka, some wine, about 6 bud lights, some black cherry jim beam whiskey and a nip of some crown royale whiskey. not to mention i already had about 8 budlights already and a pint of rum. so im good in the alcohol department right now. cant say i wont need to go to the liquor store on friday but *shrugs*.
so me and sheree watched the patriots game. we started out at powers then went to the old ground round place, got a free appetizer and a beer. then we headed to my house for a session. i was definetly feeling good because i had started to drink at like 2pm so yea i was feeling good. i guess laurent called and told her that he had won $1300 bucks. funny how she had to take his call outside, but whatever. she was ready to go right away but she finished her beer first. i dropped her off bc they were goin to chili's. i headed to marius' because i wanted to fuck but i ended up just watchin a lil tv and bounced. i had recieved a text from sheree askin if i wanted to chill but i ignored because i figured it was an old text and since she knows i veto hangin with laurent i headed home.
i went home, munched out and went to bed. i woke up this morning to sheree saying how laurent wants me to come chill. i asked why he wants me to chill? she said "he felt bad last nite like we stopped hangin out cuz of him and he wanted me to come." so she wants me to come next time and let him buy me a beer or something. i ended that convo with "oh. yea...that will never happen, he can give u the money..im just getting back to wanting us to hang out"
yea i still dont think she gets how much that shit hurt. not only because i had told her right away when i met him and how i thought he was cute, but then when i had him drop the bag off how i asked her how cute he was. like i was def fuckin diggin this dude. and because i didnt fuck him right away or because for some odd reason i shook whenever i was around him didnt mean i didnt like him. so hopefully she gets an idea of how much that shit hurt. and then for her not to apologize. or to be the one to tell me who it was. i mean i wudnt even think she cared/noticed that it could possibly be wrong for the fact that she was hiding it from me.
like i know i will see him and instantly be reminded how he was the one who showed me that the one i considered to be my number one friend of them all...should never have been put on that type of pedestal in my life. like she doesnt deserve to be my friend because we dont have the same values..and i thought we did. i can push it out of my mind when im with sheree because i love her and that shit dont just go away and shes always a good time. but i couldnt do them both together. i know id just want to walk away..maybe even do what i wanted to in the beginning and walk away from shere as well, and i obviously dont want to... and thats that.
today i have derby practice. why did i wake up to a sore ass today? i havent all weekend. its like my body knows that i have practice today. i think i want to do some warming up before going today. maybe do a little yoga and some core. i cant wait to buy some skates of my own! i am improving a little each practice...but not fast enough for me.