my nites in 413
so naturally i cant end with a good weekend. first france lost the world cup...then the sox won after a 19 inning game and then it all seemed ok. everyone was at pats for once and we watched 'how high'...and then some of us watched 'the one' but after that it all went to shit.
somehow my sister got pissed and started to clean...or make everyone clean while she was gone to do laundry. so i did. watever i dont like to hear her mouth i did wat she asked. she comes back. im layin down and naturally she says i didnt do wat she said good enough. so i sighed and said fine...she took my sigh as bein smart and started yellin...i told her i said fine...then she says i shud do more around the house eventhough im not really there...like dishes and such and i was like i do do the dishes...cuz im like the only one who does them, i try waiting for someone else to do a couple days...but NO ONE does it except me. so NATURALLY it gets into me not belongin and stayin here and shit. WHY? WHY?! do i always have to deal with that, every fuckin summer. no one understands the fuckin abuse i take and i dont share it...well i guess til now if neone ever reads this. like i have so much goin on when im in springfield which is why i dread it. i only beared it cuz i got to see both sudus but not anymore(fuckin life i hate change!)i go to nicoles to get away from it and iknow they dont care but then my mom makes me feel bad about goin over there...its a lose lose situation
anyways i needed to sleep cuz i had to work in the morn but i cudnt. i hate cryin myself to sleep, i do it too much in this city. so i got a cigarette from my niece to calm me down. its sad, i hate the thought but i had to. i had one beer but i decided not to drink it. so i went outside and smoked it it was about 12ish. i was almost done when my sis came out and said that she was sorry and stuff. i said ok...i think. but it doesnt matter that initial pain was there...is there. i mean why do people say mean things and turn around and apologize. u obviosly meant it...something u wanted to say to that person for a while obviosly. so fuck it dont apologize. i hate that shit. it hurts it doesnt take that pain away. i cudnt get myself to sleep for a while after the cigarette i still ended up shedding tears b4 falling asleep.
so yea that was my nite.
somehow my sister got pissed and started to clean...or make everyone clean while she was gone to do laundry. so i did. watever i dont like to hear her mouth i did wat she asked. she comes back. im layin down and naturally she says i didnt do wat she said good enough. so i sighed and said fine...she took my sigh as bein smart and started yellin...i told her i said fine...then she says i shud do more around the house eventhough im not really there...like dishes and such and i was like i do do the dishes...cuz im like the only one who does them, i try waiting for someone else to do a couple days...but NO ONE does it except me. so NATURALLY it gets into me not belongin and stayin here and shit. WHY? WHY?! do i always have to deal with that, every fuckin summer. no one understands the fuckin abuse i take and i dont share it...well i guess til now if neone ever reads this. like i have so much goin on when im in springfield which is why i dread it. i only beared it cuz i got to see both sudus but not anymore(fuckin life i hate change!)i go to nicoles to get away from it and iknow they dont care but then my mom makes me feel bad about goin over there...its a lose lose situation
anyways i needed to sleep cuz i had to work in the morn but i cudnt. i hate cryin myself to sleep, i do it too much in this city. so i got a cigarette from my niece to calm me down. its sad, i hate the thought but i had to. i had one beer but i decided not to drink it. so i went outside and smoked it it was about 12ish. i was almost done when my sis came out and said that she was sorry and stuff. i said ok...i think. but it doesnt matter that initial pain was there...is there. i mean why do people say mean things and turn around and apologize. u obviosly meant it...something u wanted to say to that person for a while obviosly. so fuck it dont apologize. i hate that shit. it hurts it doesnt take that pain away. i cudnt get myself to sleep for a while after the cigarette i still ended up shedding tears b4 falling asleep.
so yea that was my nite.