dreams/yesterday/now
i had a dream last nite about my teeth falling out, man its been awhile since i had that dream but its definetly back. funny thing was that i was so confused in the dream cuz i kept tellin myself that it wasnt a dream and that it was really happening. i was at like a camp and we were doin some obstacles and they jus kept comin out and i kept tryn to hide it in my pocket. even when someone was lookin at me i guess i kept collectin them in my mouth til i cud do a whole bunch at a time. damn. i went back to the website and it says: "Dreaming of teeth falling out may represent insecurity. These dreams often occur at a time of transition between one phase of life and another. When we lost our milk teeth, we also gradually lost our childhood innocence. Loosing your teeth therefore show that today you have similar feelings of uncertainty and self-consciousness as you did in childhood. The dream could also highlight your worries about getting older or your sexual attractiveness."
im tryn not to think about sheree leavin to be honest. i sort of like pushed it out of my head so i dont have to think about it...cuz i dont want to be upset. last nite was prolly my las nite seein her and i acted like it wasnt for my own sake. i dont wanna hug her cuz im afraid that im gonna start ballin.
mommy let me borrow the car last nite..later than i had originally planned on and i was so upset and i started to get so pissed. sheree cud hear it when i answered the phone and she said not to worry about it. we were gonna go get suttin but that fell through so we had nuttin to do. so we went to the liqour store got a couple 40's and parked at the movie theaters and drank then we went to stop n shop and went to the bathroom and then picked up some sandwich stuff. by that time it was 12 and we met up wit nick, i dropped off my moms car and they picked me up at pats house. we went to the middle school and smoked some and jus chilled. me and nick played a prank on her when she was comin from peein. she had bubble wrap to go around her bowl and we said that nick had popped it and we only showed her a lil bit that was popped and she was gettin so pissed and then i showed it to her and she was like damn u guys got me.
then they dropped me off. i came in the house and put the stuff we had picked up from stop n shop on the grill and made some cinnamon toast crunch. it was sooo good. trav had given me his empanada but i had forgotten all about it. i passed out. pat and mommy called me maaad times this morning so i was in bed til bout 1pm. i made me and travo some breakfast. now im jus sittin here tryna figure out wat i should do wit my life at this point in time. ugh. this suxs. i wish i had a blunt. nicole still hasnt called...i wander if she remembers that she promised to call. hmm well i am wonderin wat this day will bring me today. please include smokin and a 40!
im tryn not to think about sheree leavin to be honest. i sort of like pushed it out of my head so i dont have to think about it...cuz i dont want to be upset. last nite was prolly my las nite seein her and i acted like it wasnt for my own sake. i dont wanna hug her cuz im afraid that im gonna start ballin.
mommy let me borrow the car last nite..later than i had originally planned on and i was so upset and i started to get so pissed. sheree cud hear it when i answered the phone and she said not to worry about it. we were gonna go get suttin but that fell through so we had nuttin to do. so we went to the liqour store got a couple 40's and parked at the movie theaters and drank then we went to stop n shop and went to the bathroom and then picked up some sandwich stuff. by that time it was 12 and we met up wit nick, i dropped off my moms car and they picked me up at pats house. we went to the middle school and smoked some and jus chilled. me and nick played a prank on her when she was comin from peein. she had bubble wrap to go around her bowl and we said that nick had popped it and we only showed her a lil bit that was popped and she was gettin so pissed and then i showed it to her and she was like damn u guys got me.
then they dropped me off. i came in the house and put the stuff we had picked up from stop n shop on the grill and made some cinnamon toast crunch. it was sooo good. trav had given me his empanada but i had forgotten all about it. i passed out. pat and mommy called me maaad times this morning so i was in bed til bout 1pm. i made me and travo some breakfast. now im jus sittin here tryna figure out wat i should do wit my life at this point in time. ugh. this suxs. i wish i had a blunt. nicole still hasnt called...i wander if she remembers that she promised to call. hmm well i am wonderin wat this day will bring me today. please include smokin and a 40!