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[chantal_lewis]

 I had a dream last night. It was that Mr. Pettit died, and they were having an open casket viewing. There weren't a lot of people there, which saddened me, but I was there with Ashleigh. His wife and kids were there, of course. I didn't start crying until I actually looked at him, and eventually, his wife told me I had to leave because I was touching him (hands and face, pervs). I refused to leave and pretty much confessed everything to him right there, even though he was gone. They eventually had to drag me out of there and I was screaming and crying and everything. Surprisingly, the let me go to the funeral, and by that time, I'd cried so much that I just looked as if I were emotionless completely. I said a few kind words about him, and when no one was looking, I kissed the casket before they buried it.

Needless to say, I woke up crying.

And was it wrong to nearly burst into tears when a substitute teacher walked in instead of Mr. Pettit this morning?

Mr. Hart isn't here, either. But he told us he wasn't going to be here, so it's okay.

I'm going to end up posting to all my RPs stating that I'm going on hiatus indefinitely. Apparently, the 'family' has a problem with me being on AIM and the internet at the same time--they say it makes it act weird or something. Needless to say, I won't be on AIM for awhile, and I'll only be updating LJ at school. And I may just drop 
ville_delumierecompletely if this crap keeps up.