Comments | chant_1: Fear itself

chant_1

Fear itself

Apr 18, 2011 17:55

I've been noticing lately how self-sabotaging I am in my life; how I make excuses, and procrastinate, pummel my self-esteem by comparing myself unfavorably to others. And it's only recently that I've really understood that this is all fear behavior. That the biggest obstacle in my path is - has always been - my own fear, wearing whatever the ( Read more... )

fear, writing

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chant_1 April 19 2011, 20:19:36 UTC

You know, I never actually thought about the why behind the fear, so thanks for making me look at it. I guess...I guess I'm afraid that people won't like my work. And I mean, I know that there will always be someone who doesn't like my work. I guess my fear is that NO ONE will like mine. :/ Insecure, much?

dotificus April 19 2011, 01:34:19 UTC

Here, have some candy to go with that paper bag.

It will get easier. But facing potential rejection is always hard. But it does get easier!

chant_1 April 19 2011, 20:21:13 UTC

Mmmm...candy is always good! Thanks for the words of encouragement. I think it's just kind of clearing that first hurdle, you know? But as long as you promise it gets easier... ; )

ex_triciasu April 19 2011, 04:16:41 UTC

I would just like to play Devil's Advocate and mention that writing a novel is a long, hard, long, long and long process. Others around you may be polishing and sharing and having the satisfaction of completion, and you may still be trying to figure out what to do about that thing in Chapter 17 and its consequences. I can't tell you how many times I have felt in a pit of despair: 'Will this never be DONE!' and 'I must suck to be taking so long at this' and on and on and on ( ... )

chant_1 April 19 2011, 20:25:16 UTC

Candy and a tiara? It must be my lucky day!

I think partially it's what you said...the long and long and long process, totally alone. I mean, I've been working on this for 1 1/2 years now, and have scarcely shared at all. What if the whole thing is a hot mess??

I know I'll be able to look back and say "Well, at least I learned from it."

But from this angle, where it is pre- any kind of judgment...still nail-biting. But I'm not telling you anything you don't already know.

I've been tempted to say "screw it" and just ask for feedback, to make sure I'm on the right track, but I didn't because it's nowhere near ready, and I don't want people to see it until I think it's as good as I can get it.

kellyrfineman April 19 2011, 16:13:14 UTC

Boy do I hear you. Feel the fear and do it anyway. (A definition of courage, if ever there was one.)

chant_1 April 19 2011, 20:26:59 UTC

Thanks - and I'm definitely working on it! : )