Confession
I have a confession to make. It's kind of shocking.
I have discovered that I want nothing more than to be a stay-at-home wife. I mean, I obviously can't-- we just can't afford it-- but I would love to just clean the house all day and learn how to cook. Damon loves cooking, but there are nights when he doesnt want to.
I have spent my entire life yelling about how oppressed my gender is. I vote left because it's the party of women for heaven's sake. While I have never chastised stay-at-home moms (contrarily, I have a lot of respect for them), I always said that I could never do it and the only way I could be a constructive part of society was if I had a real job (preferrably doing something for the greater good) and to always be doing.
But what could be greater for the greater good that having a family you take care of?
Biblically, woman was put on this earth to serve man. What we often overlook is that the Hebrew for "man" (in the instance of Genesis) also means "mankind" (much like in English). I like to look at that as God's calling to all women to do something for the greater good, which is why I want to teach, or work at a non-profit, or do something other than answer phones for Microsoft.
But now, I have accepted the fact that I want to serve my husband, and I feel like a traitor to my people. I don't want to give up my right to vote, I don't want to be barefoot and pregnant at 21, but I want to give him backrubs when he's tired and footrubs when he's sore. I felt like a total failure this morning because I forgot some of the things he asked me to do. He told me not to worry about it, but he was missing the point-- I want to make him happy and do all of the stupid things he asks and tie his necktie in the morning and iron his clothes.
I definitely do not want kids right now. But I would love to just stay at home and make things perfect.
Damon would never let me.
I have discovered that I want nothing more than to be a stay-at-home wife. I mean, I obviously can't-- we just can't afford it-- but I would love to just clean the house all day and learn how to cook. Damon loves cooking, but there are nights when he doesnt want to.
I have spent my entire life yelling about how oppressed my gender is. I vote left because it's the party of women for heaven's sake. While I have never chastised stay-at-home moms (contrarily, I have a lot of respect for them), I always said that I could never do it and the only way I could be a constructive part of society was if I had a real job (preferrably doing something for the greater good) and to always be doing.
But what could be greater for the greater good that having a family you take care of?
Biblically, woman was put on this earth to serve man. What we often overlook is that the Hebrew for "man" (in the instance of Genesis) also means "mankind" (much like in English). I like to look at that as God's calling to all women to do something for the greater good, which is why I want to teach, or work at a non-profit, or do something other than answer phones for Microsoft.
But now, I have accepted the fact that I want to serve my husband, and I feel like a traitor to my people. I don't want to give up my right to vote, I don't want to be barefoot and pregnant at 21, but I want to give him backrubs when he's tired and footrubs when he's sore. I felt like a total failure this morning because I forgot some of the things he asked me to do. He told me not to worry about it, but he was missing the point-- I want to make him happy and do all of the stupid things he asks and tie his necktie in the morning and iron his clothes.
I definitely do not want kids right now. But I would love to just stay at home and make things perfect.
Damon would never let me.