This week
Journal entry 9/16
I have so much to write about! So much happened in one week!
Ok let me start from the beginning and see if I remember it all.
My email rant to my friends and family had a definite impact on me. It was like I could feel the shift inside of myself. I am no longer content to send emails and do nothing against what is happening in our country. So I decided to join Moveon.org "Operation Democracy" group. They go around getting written signatures, hand out information, call Senators and write to newspapers. There is one big group in Manhattan, and since I am there most of my time, I will be going to that one. I don't know how that will play out. But I'm becoming braver. I called Chuck Schumer yesterday and pleaded for him not to vote for Judge Roberts! It felt incredible.
Speaking of braver, I also noticed groups other than this through meetup.com. I joined two groups that way to expose myself to more people that follow my path. There is an opening to a new store in Brooklyn that I will go to tonight. Sadly, since Starr's store closed. I almost feel disloyal, but I want to see the new place. I'll know these people anyway through meetup, so I might as well see their store while I have the chance.
Work has been kicking my butt. I knew it would pick up in September, and it did with a vengeance this week. A few of my co-workers cannot handle the transition period we are going through as we move from one sister company to the next. One was talking about leaving, which actually pissed me off. We aren't physically moving, thank goodness. During the week I was asked to join the IT committee in charge of the IT Integration. It's a good thing I decided to say yes, as there were many things and aspects that I was aware of that no one else in the room seemed to know. Sadly, it also stressed me. I left work that day feeling sapped of everything, and I know its only going to get worse as we move towards November 11th, the big launch day.
I have found my identical twin! I might have mentioned her before, but she is so awesome I will mention it again. Her name is Venus. She is also extremely cute, asking me for permission for a few things. She's so respectful, which is so rare for an 18 year old. Jez commented to me how grown up Venus is, and I smiled. Of course, I replied. She's a Capricorn! I was very mature at 18 too, so I am not surprised one bit! John has taken to calling Venus "Mini you." LOL.
That reminds me. I am taking an Astrology class. I learned a great deal, but I still have to read the book to be prepared for class.
I don't have many prejudices, but strangely enough, there is one that really influences me. Astrology! Yes! I am serious. I can barely tolerate Aries men, and Aries women need something else going on in their chart for me to be able to handle them. There is only one Aries woman that flips me out, and that's because Aries is very, very strong in her chart. I get along with pretty much every other sign, especially my own, of course. However, I have noticed that I am wary of my own sign as well. Capricorns can be so judgmental... so rigid. Every sign has their negative and positive aspects, of course, but Capricorns concern me especially.
Astrology has such a hold over me that it becomes a factor when I think about babies. I know to many people that sounds ridiculous, especially since having babies will be so damned hard for me. But think about it. If you bought an apartment for life that you knew, going in, you would clash with in some way, would you buy it? Now I know a baby is not an apartment, not by any stretch. But I happen to think that astrology works. My astrology teacher says that astrology is not a loss of free will, it is anticipating events so you can be better prepared. For example, as a Capricorn I know I can be judgmental. Once I became aware of that, over the year I managed to catch myself and reverse my course before I acted. I am always fascinated about knowing all the deep, dark facets of myself and others. Astrology has definitely helped shed some light on my person, as well as others. So if I had an Aries son, we are going to clash. Aries and Capricorns don't tend to get along to begin with, but the male Aires and the female Capricorn especially. I read once that this combination leads to the female acting as the "mother" and the male being some version of a "son." No thanks. I don't want a traditional mother, child relationship. I don't have one with Rhiannon, and I think it works very well. If I have to feel that my child will never grow up no matter what I do, especially a son, I'm going to go nuts.
I think part of the reason Rhiannon and I get along so well is because she has such a large concentration of Capricorn in her chart. Damn, she can be more Capricorn than me, and her sun sign is Gemini! I get along fine with Geminis. I get along great with John because even though he's a Libra sun sign, he has Taurus as his rising sign, which gets along very well with my Capricorn rising. Additionally, I have Pisces as my Venus and he has Scorpio, so in the love/passion department, we work exceptionally well. Other Librans can try my patience. John's placement with Taurus helps balance out the indecisiveness, and grounds him.
I have more but I'll come back later.
I have so much to write about! So much happened in one week!
Ok let me start from the beginning and see if I remember it all.
My email rant to my friends and family had a definite impact on me. It was like I could feel the shift inside of myself. I am no longer content to send emails and do nothing against what is happening in our country. So I decided to join Moveon.org "Operation Democracy" group. They go around getting written signatures, hand out information, call Senators and write to newspapers. There is one big group in Manhattan, and since I am there most of my time, I will be going to that one. I don't know how that will play out. But I'm becoming braver. I called Chuck Schumer yesterday and pleaded for him not to vote for Judge Roberts! It felt incredible.
Speaking of braver, I also noticed groups other than this through meetup.com. I joined two groups that way to expose myself to more people that follow my path. There is an opening to a new store in Brooklyn that I will go to tonight. Sadly, since Starr's store closed. I almost feel disloyal, but I want to see the new place. I'll know these people anyway through meetup, so I might as well see their store while I have the chance.
Work has been kicking my butt. I knew it would pick up in September, and it did with a vengeance this week. A few of my co-workers cannot handle the transition period we are going through as we move from one sister company to the next. One was talking about leaving, which actually pissed me off. We aren't physically moving, thank goodness. During the week I was asked to join the IT committee in charge of the IT Integration. It's a good thing I decided to say yes, as there were many things and aspects that I was aware of that no one else in the room seemed to know. Sadly, it also stressed me. I left work that day feeling sapped of everything, and I know its only going to get worse as we move towards November 11th, the big launch day.
I have found my identical twin! I might have mentioned her before, but she is so awesome I will mention it again. Her name is Venus. She is also extremely cute, asking me for permission for a few things. She's so respectful, which is so rare for an 18 year old. Jez commented to me how grown up Venus is, and I smiled. Of course, I replied. She's a Capricorn! I was very mature at 18 too, so I am not surprised one bit! John has taken to calling Venus "Mini you." LOL.
That reminds me. I am taking an Astrology class. I learned a great deal, but I still have to read the book to be prepared for class.
I don't have many prejudices, but strangely enough, there is one that really influences me. Astrology! Yes! I am serious. I can barely tolerate Aries men, and Aries women need something else going on in their chart for me to be able to handle them. There is only one Aries woman that flips me out, and that's because Aries is very, very strong in her chart. I get along with pretty much every other sign, especially my own, of course. However, I have noticed that I am wary of my own sign as well. Capricorns can be so judgmental... so rigid. Every sign has their negative and positive aspects, of course, but Capricorns concern me especially.
Astrology has such a hold over me that it becomes a factor when I think about babies. I know to many people that sounds ridiculous, especially since having babies will be so damned hard for me. But think about it. If you bought an apartment for life that you knew, going in, you would clash with in some way, would you buy it? Now I know a baby is not an apartment, not by any stretch. But I happen to think that astrology works. My astrology teacher says that astrology is not a loss of free will, it is anticipating events so you can be better prepared. For example, as a Capricorn I know I can be judgmental. Once I became aware of that, over the year I managed to catch myself and reverse my course before I acted. I am always fascinated about knowing all the deep, dark facets of myself and others. Astrology has definitely helped shed some light on my person, as well as others. So if I had an Aries son, we are going to clash. Aries and Capricorns don't tend to get along to begin with, but the male Aires and the female Capricorn especially. I read once that this combination leads to the female acting as the "mother" and the male being some version of a "son." No thanks. I don't want a traditional mother, child relationship. I don't have one with Rhiannon, and I think it works very well. If I have to feel that my child will never grow up no matter what I do, especially a son, I'm going to go nuts.
I think part of the reason Rhiannon and I get along so well is because she has such a large concentration of Capricorn in her chart. Damn, she can be more Capricorn than me, and her sun sign is Gemini! I get along fine with Geminis. I get along great with John because even though he's a Libra sun sign, he has Taurus as his rising sign, which gets along very well with my Capricorn rising. Additionally, I have Pisces as my Venus and he has Scorpio, so in the love/passion department, we work exceptionally well. Other Librans can try my patience. John's placement with Taurus helps balance out the indecisiveness, and grounds him.
I have more but I'll come back later.