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it's been nothing but rainy and gray for a long time now and i'm really enjoying it.
however, the rain is bringing me down quite a bit.
tonight an old wound was reopened and i'm not sure that i can deal with it right now, but i'm going to have to.
the very thought of seeing him at school makes me feel sick.
as always, not too much has happened.
i went to h&m, bought a couple movies, hung out with friends, and have gradually become more and more of a hermit.
i've been feeling too materialistic lately.
but mainly just miserable.
i'm sick of being let down by people and i think you know who you are.
something needs to change in my life and i don't know what it is, but it needs to change.
college.
its all i've been hearing lately and i'm not ready for it.
i want to leave, don't get me wrong. i just don't know what to do with my life.
no one cares about this anyway, but i needed to get it off my chest.