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Amazing how even though I have so much going for me, I still get stuck on the one thing that I always get stuck on.
All of the wordes that brought me hope and some sick sort of comfort now feel like they were a mocking attempt to manipulate me one more time.
Lies and false hope.
What makes me the most hurt is knowing that I still try to win your attention like some stupid clown in the carnival that is your life.
Deep down I know that I'm only trying to make you jealous. Eye for an eye, right "mate"?
When I think about all of the bad its almost like a vemon is going through my veins making me sick with rage.
When I think about all the good, its even worse.
Much like a morbid curiosity, I try to get close to the dead, only to be replused by what lies infront of me.
Stop looking so damn smug. You know all you have now is fake promises that ring on deaf ears.
Enjoy it while it lasts.
All of the wordes that brought me hope and some sick sort of comfort now feel like they were a mocking attempt to manipulate me one more time.
Lies and false hope.
What makes me the most hurt is knowing that I still try to win your attention like some stupid clown in the carnival that is your life.
Deep down I know that I'm only trying to make you jealous. Eye for an eye, right "mate"?
When I think about all of the bad its almost like a vemon is going through my veins making me sick with rage.
When I think about all the good, its even worse.
Much like a morbid curiosity, I try to get close to the dead, only to be replused by what lies infront of me.
Stop looking so damn smug. You know all you have now is fake promises that ring on deaf ears.
Enjoy it while it lasts.