I'll let you down

[changedagain]

First year of college: over. Last night I said goodbye to my best friend for an indefinite amount of time. It wasn't the easiest parting of ways I've experienced, but he's moving on to bigger and better things, so it had to be done. Me? I've got a job at Chemical Response and Remediation Contractors again, hopefully making some big bucks, working full time. Ouch.
Check this out: as of late, I've been feeling really anxious, like I want to get up and go somewhere, but I have nowhere to go, or anything to do. Oftentimes I just fidget in my seat for hours, trying to think of something to do to cure this anxiousness.
I started this entry more than half an hour ago, and I can't think of anything to say. I guess to wrap it all up, I'm not real happy about being back in the valley. Sure, it'll be fun going to the beach and seeing my friends that are down here, but with this job that I need, I'll hardly have time for that. Bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch, that's all I do.

Trust me
I'll be there when you need me
You'll be safe here
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me
I will let you down
I'll let you down
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me