April is coming to an end.
What can I say? The past month has been of a whirlwind; everything seemed so surreal. The series of events were insane, and I felt like I was on a roller-coaster ride that didn't seem to end, or even end up at where it started from. It brought me to great highs and new lows, and mixed feelings and thoughts continuously wore me out through and through. Too much to handle, and where my comfort could rest, I placed it on a platform that was so uncertain and unstable. I almost couldn't recognize myself anymore, and deep down I loathed this person whom I had become. But I'm glad those days of struggle were over, and I'm slowly regaining myself back.
I've come to realize that if a man really and truly wants to be with you, he will make it happen no matter what and how long it takes. Unfortunately for most of us, we meet guys who don't fight enough for us, deeming us unworthy of their time and effort. What happens to princes fighting dragons to save the princesses they love? Of course, they're just fairy-tales to instill this sense of (false) hope in young girls that probably will not come to realize. It's sad isn't it, especially in today's world with untrue facades and values placing on money, power and external beauty, where promises don't hold true, where people fall out of love as easy as they fall into it. Where there are more Misters Right Time rather than Misters Right. It's hard to discern the right from the wrong, the truth from the lies. It's hard to believe, with all your heart, because you're afraid that if you do, someday it might destroy you, all of you.
Expectations kill. Expectations and disappointments often come together, complementing each other. I've learnt from experience that surprises come when there is nothing to be expected of. Unfortunately, I am also a dreamer. Deep down in this realist lies a heart that still hopes and dreams. Of something everlasting. Maybe someday, my head and my heart will sing the same song. A beautiful song bringing eternal hope and bliss, over and over again.
I've come to realize that if a man really and truly wants to be with you, he will make it happen no matter what and how long it takes. Unfortunately for most of us, we meet guys who don't fight enough for us, deeming us unworthy of their time and effort. What happens to princes fighting dragons to save the princesses they love? Of course, they're just fairy-tales to instill this sense of (false) hope in young girls that probably will not come to realize. It's sad isn't it, especially in today's world with untrue facades and values placing on money, power and external beauty, where promises don't hold true, where people fall out of love as easy as they fall into it. Where there are more Misters Right Time rather than Misters Right. It's hard to discern the right from the wrong, the truth from the lies. It's hard to believe, with all your heart, because you're afraid that if you do, someday it might destroy you, all of you.
Expectations kill. Expectations and disappointments often come together, complementing each other. I've learnt from experience that surprises come when there is nothing to be expected of. Unfortunately, I am also a dreamer. Deep down in this realist lies a heart that still hopes and dreams. Of something everlasting. Maybe someday, my head and my heart will sing the same song. A beautiful song bringing eternal hope and bliss, over and over again.