I might be a part of the Prozac nation.
Today was eventful, and emotional.
So, this morning was the first time since school ended that I have talked to my Psychologist. Straight away I told her what had been my major problems I've been having: disinterest in everything in my life that I love, and loneliness. Right away, we start talking about how I think when I'm feeling especially down. It basically comes down to medication. She talks to my mom, and says that she will talk to my doctor, make sure I'm not Anemic or have a Vitamin D deficiency (because those two things cause depression), and then she'll figure out whether or not I should be on medication.
SO YEAH.
ALL THAT JAZZ.
Edit:
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.
Today was life altering.
So, first I'm talking to Matt about intimacy and sexuality. He get's uncomfortable because of the obvious: he is so fucking gay and he won't admit it. Then I start talking to Mandy, and the same thing comes up for some reason. I'm saying how we can do a test about whether or not she's gay, because she's been worrying about it lately.
I give her some boy images. A picture of a dick, nekkid guys, masturbation.
She is totally grossed out. Except when it comes to the girly guys
Then, I show her dirty pictures of girls. Pretty dirty.
She gets so embarrassed that she turns off the fucking camera and tells me that she doesn't want me to see her face. I am fucking flabbergasted. I mean, I had my suspicions, and Natalie told me she was a lesbian, BUT C'MON. IT'S MANDY.
SO, we talk some more and now we are sure. If Mandy isn't a lesbian, than she is at least Bisexual, leaning more towards the girls. Then she starts saying, will you date me now?
And I am uncomfortable. I can't event think of dating Mandy, and she is not into me. I'm sure of it.
So I tell her, "The next time you spend the night at my house, kiss me. Then you will really realize you have no feelings for me."
So, yeah. I guess I have something to expect when she comes over.
So, this morning was the first time since school ended that I have talked to my Psychologist. Straight away I told her what had been my major problems I've been having: disinterest in everything in my life that I love, and loneliness. Right away, we start talking about how I think when I'm feeling especially down. It basically comes down to medication. She talks to my mom, and says that she will talk to my doctor, make sure I'm not Anemic or have a Vitamin D deficiency (because those two things cause depression), and then she'll figure out whether or not I should be on medication.
SO YEAH.
ALL THAT JAZZ.
Edit:
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.
Today was life altering.
So, first I'm talking to Matt about intimacy and sexuality. He get's uncomfortable because of the obvious: he is so fucking gay and he won't admit it. Then I start talking to Mandy, and the same thing comes up for some reason. I'm saying how we can do a test about whether or not she's gay, because she's been worrying about it lately.
I give her some boy images. A picture of a dick, nekkid guys, masturbation.
She is totally grossed out. Except when it comes to the girly guys
Then, I show her dirty pictures of girls. Pretty dirty.
She gets so embarrassed that she turns off the fucking camera and tells me that she doesn't want me to see her face. I am fucking flabbergasted. I mean, I had my suspicions, and Natalie told me she was a lesbian, BUT C'MON. IT'S MANDY.
SO, we talk some more and now we are sure. If Mandy isn't a lesbian, than she is at least Bisexual, leaning more towards the girls. Then she starts saying, will you date me now?
And I am uncomfortable. I can't event think of dating Mandy, and she is not into me. I'm sure of it.
So I tell her, "The next time you spend the night at my house, kiss me. Then you will really realize you have no feelings for me."
So, yeah. I guess I have something to expect when she comes over.