feelngs
Like i am worthless. That I am selfish and a horrible person. That I try and try and am never happy. How do I make every one happy? Can I? Is it better if I never tried? I know I can be the best of a friend, I will fight till the end for you but do you realize that? Do you care? Should I bother? Once I have decided that IS worth fighting for it will take HELL to make me not fight for you. Even if it hurts me. Underdog coworker or friend. . Every should have someone to fight for them? Or am I just thinking of me again. When just about EVERYONE you have every loved has died should you love again? I talking double digits here people. The close and the new close people to you. Do I dare trust to LOVE again? Will they leave me. Why do I spent so much time trying to please others when they don't care? Who can love me. I am not a good person. I am selfish and NEVER want to be hurt again.
I cry and cry and wonder why? I might have lost more then most but it could be worse so why do I not feel glad for what I have?
It that time of year again.Her birthday was the jan 28 Feb 15 My aunt died. She raised me form six till 16. HOW does one trust to love again? Why the FUCK should I care? It is better to be HARD. TO NOT CARE OR TRUST If at .n ,ALL FOR ONESELF! but I feel still I still hurt and want some one to do what ever it took for me. IS that wrong? I would I am so fucking DUMB! Life fucking sucks and WHY THE FUCK DO I CARE? If they love me would they have left? Am I worth fight for? Loving? But Deep inside I feel that I now that I am not.
I had wrote this blog to myselft on the 23 of Jan. I was having a really bad night and just wanted to let out how I had felt.
Now Its Feb.
I guess I am not worth loving or fight for.
I cry and cry and wonder why? I might have lost more then most but it could be worse so why do I not feel glad for what I have?
It that time of year again.Her birthday was the jan 28 Feb 15 My aunt died. She raised me form six till 16. HOW does one trust to love again? Why the FUCK should I care? It is better to be HARD. TO NOT CARE OR TRUST If at .n ,ALL FOR ONESELF! but I feel still I still hurt and want some one to do what ever it took for me. IS that wrong? I would I am so fucking DUMB! Life fucking sucks and WHY THE FUCK DO I CARE? If they love me would they have left? Am I worth fight for? Loving? But Deep inside I feel that I now that I am not.
I had wrote this blog to myselft on the 23 of Jan. I was having a really bad night and just wanted to let out how I had felt.
Now Its Feb.
I guess I am not worth loving or fight for.