I Dont Know Your Face Anymore,For All I Know Of You Now,We Might As Well Be Strangers
Last week was hell but this week has been pretty good.
My cousins from Kansas finally left and thats good news for all of Indiana.
But they got me sick right before they left so thanks alot to them.
And being sick the week before you have a show is not the greatest thing ever let me tell ya.
So this past weekend was pretty awesome with a few downfalls.
Jake and Ashley came up on Friday,late as always,but they got here and we had a vocal/bass practice which pretty much meant that we practiced without Ross because he had "School Work" to do so he asked if he could practice with us on Saturday after the assembly.
So then Saturday was the assembly,which was insanely great.
Got to see a few old faces one of which was Clayton's.
He sat behind us a few rows back.
A few times when we were singing a song and I would turn slightly to put my book down,I would see him look at me and smile with that emptyness/loneliness look you have whenever you pass by a place you had that first kiss with the one that got away or when you see the house you grew up in that is now someone elses home.
Then I had parking lot duty and as I was guiding ones out of the parking lot,I saw him sitting in his car talking on the phone,he smiled at me and I to him,Then as he drove away he rolled down the window and yelled "I LOVE YOU MAN! MISS YOU!",I almost cryed.
It was nice to be that close to him but it hurt soo bad.
Then we went to eat with some friends and laughed to death,thanks in large part to Jake Stone,he always brings out the best in me,if Jake is around and I'm not laughing I might be in the midst of dying!
Then we had full band practice and it went well I feel.
We worked out some more vocals and it was super cool and we shorten our set by a song due to the work it needed and the time we didnt have to work on it.
Then today we didnt have meeting cause of the assembly being yesterday so I slept in some,then took care of my mom as always,then Travis called and wanted to go up to Guitar Center to look at new basses for The Coast Affair.
So I met up with him and Ross and we went and we found this amazingly sweet bass so Travis bought it and at a great price too.
So then we came back to Travis' for Coast Affair practice and it too was great,we got part of a new song worked out.
I started to get this feeling this week/weekend.
Its this feeling I get ever so often and maybe you know what I am talking about.
The feeling that lingers around you eyes that makes you feel like crying at any moment,that cold chill that shoots up your sphine,that feeling that you need to talk to someone insted of listening to the car move along the highway,and you cant help but think that you're missing out on something amazing.
Thats how I have been feeling this past week.
I miss having someone to talk to on the phone at night,telling them about my day was and the people I saw and the things that I did.
Wanting to know how someone is and actually want to know.
And that feeling that puffs up your heart in an instant.
Where have those feelings gone?
I did the old "Break out your phone and call someone you havent called in forever" thing.
I called Denise to ask her how she was and because she always listens to me.
Sadly though she is not someone I can call my own and I think that maybe thats what I am looking for right now,not someone to help me right now and pass the time but someone for forever and to fix this loneliness taking over all my other emotions.
She was of course amazing and made me feel pretty good,and like I told her most of the time this feeling I get last about a day and its gone as soon as my head hits the pillow but this feeling was there with me all through the night asking me to turn the pillow over to the colder side and it was there this morning asking the sun to stop shineing.
I hope this feeling goes away by the weekend but you never know.
I am really looking forward to this weekend cause it brings soo much.
Taking Back Sunday in Cincey with Ross and Travis,then Losing Indiana at Logos on Saturday and then Coast Affair Practice on Sunday.
A full weekend to say the least.
Thank you and we now return you to your regular lifes already in progress.
My cousins from Kansas finally left and thats good news for all of Indiana.
But they got me sick right before they left so thanks alot to them.
And being sick the week before you have a show is not the greatest thing ever let me tell ya.
So this past weekend was pretty awesome with a few downfalls.
Jake and Ashley came up on Friday,late as always,but they got here and we had a vocal/bass practice which pretty much meant that we practiced without Ross because he had "School Work" to do so he asked if he could practice with us on Saturday after the assembly.
So then Saturday was the assembly,which was insanely great.
Got to see a few old faces one of which was Clayton's.
He sat behind us a few rows back.
A few times when we were singing a song and I would turn slightly to put my book down,I would see him look at me and smile with that emptyness/loneliness look you have whenever you pass by a place you had that first kiss with the one that got away or when you see the house you grew up in that is now someone elses home.
Then I had parking lot duty and as I was guiding ones out of the parking lot,I saw him sitting in his car talking on the phone,he smiled at me and I to him,Then as he drove away he rolled down the window and yelled "I LOVE YOU MAN! MISS YOU!",I almost cryed.
It was nice to be that close to him but it hurt soo bad.
Then we went to eat with some friends and laughed to death,thanks in large part to Jake Stone,he always brings out the best in me,if Jake is around and I'm not laughing I might be in the midst of dying!
Then we had full band practice and it went well I feel.
We worked out some more vocals and it was super cool and we shorten our set by a song due to the work it needed and the time we didnt have to work on it.
Then today we didnt have meeting cause of the assembly being yesterday so I slept in some,then took care of my mom as always,then Travis called and wanted to go up to Guitar Center to look at new basses for The Coast Affair.
So I met up with him and Ross and we went and we found this amazingly sweet bass so Travis bought it and at a great price too.
So then we came back to Travis' for Coast Affair practice and it too was great,we got part of a new song worked out.
I started to get this feeling this week/weekend.
Its this feeling I get ever so often and maybe you know what I am talking about.
The feeling that lingers around you eyes that makes you feel like crying at any moment,that cold chill that shoots up your sphine,that feeling that you need to talk to someone insted of listening to the car move along the highway,and you cant help but think that you're missing out on something amazing.
Thats how I have been feeling this past week.
I miss having someone to talk to on the phone at night,telling them about my day was and the people I saw and the things that I did.
Wanting to know how someone is and actually want to know.
And that feeling that puffs up your heart in an instant.
Where have those feelings gone?
I did the old "Break out your phone and call someone you havent called in forever" thing.
I called Denise to ask her how she was and because she always listens to me.
Sadly though she is not someone I can call my own and I think that maybe thats what I am looking for right now,not someone to help me right now and pass the time but someone for forever and to fix this loneliness taking over all my other emotions.
She was of course amazing and made me feel pretty good,and like I told her most of the time this feeling I get last about a day and its gone as soon as my head hits the pillow but this feeling was there with me all through the night asking me to turn the pillow over to the colder side and it was there this morning asking the sun to stop shineing.
I hope this feeling goes away by the weekend but you never know.
I am really looking forward to this weekend cause it brings soo much.
Taking Back Sunday in Cincey with Ross and Travis,then Losing Indiana at Logos on Saturday and then Coast Affair Practice on Sunday.
A full weekend to say the least.
Thank you and we now return you to your regular lifes already in progress.